After the initial shock, disbelief, hurt, anger, rage.. there is now a most pleasant calm, peace, acceptance, relief, an indescribable renewed sense of freedom to think and feel and be. I don't know the answers and and am not in the slightest bit worried about not doing so. Guilt too is no longer a part of my life and my sense of self-worth is gradually re-balancing itself to acceptable norms.
I have regained my empathy and love too towards all people everywhere instead of having it choked and confined to only those the org told me I should love.
Being truthful about the truth is maybe the best and most important single thing that has happened to me on the last 30 years. I am immensely grateful for this.