YK,
At least you gave attention to my post, and I read very carefully those you write yourself. And it is very interesting, but I cannot return to those WT teachings. I've been trough that.
The first time I begun to wonder about the JWs beliefs, as I were a bible student, I was pretty much thinking like you do now. I couldn't see the evidences, cause there are (and you have maybe notice some by yourself, as I can see in your post, without beeing precise about those), because I couldn't really prove by myself that the WT was wrong. But be carefull here: I don't say that the WT is ALL wrong, but they are in many important issues.
So after a while, and not long ago, I got myself a computer and the Internet. At the beginning, I was affraid to go on the net searching for Jehovah Witnesses web sites. But after a while I took my courage and typed "jehovah witnesses" in my search engine. Oh boy!!! I couldn't have been aware of so much information I was looking for in years!!!!!! But when it became obvious that there was very good web sites about the subject, showing proof with what they say about the WT teachings, I use caution. Though I know that good information is helpfull to clarify an issue, it is oubvious that some sites are only WT-bashing crap. Intelligent criticizm on a subject can be very usefull to demistify the WT teaching; otherwise some of them that you call "apostate" are very faithfull heartly poeple. But when they can prove when an organization is telling lies to its follower, they cannot continue to teach lies to the population who is not aware.
I know that the WT hasn't to be "true" all the time, that's impossible. And maybe there is something good in it, but I doubt it. Sorry. But when it become oubvious that their teaching is somewhat going far in the wrong direction, how can you say that it is the Truth anymore?
Beside, if it feels good for you to stay in those beliefs, that your affair. I won't even try to get you out of it. But if someday you come with about the same conclusions that there is something wrong with those beliefs, as I do, I will be the first to help you understand your doubts (I am sure you already have some, but I can be wrong), cause doubting is in a way a good sign of intelligence. Anyone should have the right to discuss, give his opinion (and I even invite you to continue to post about your position) on an issue, every one is welcome.
So may you continue your work, but beware that someday you could come on same conclusion as mine or others.
With regards,
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