I agree with Terry.
I too just recently had a similiar epiphany. We were so indocrinated to believe we had all the answers, we think the world must be completely understood.
The JW religion creates an artificial black and white version of an extremely gray world.
When I first started seeing things, I had a lot of stress about not having an explanation now. Then finally it hit me. Neither does anybody else!
The GB doesn't have all the answers and nether do I. The difference is - I don't pretend I do.