Posts by ohnightdivine

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How many are PIMO ??

by Phizzy in

i know we cannot answer this, how many are physically in, mentally out (pimo), but i heard an amazing piece of news the other day.. an ex-p.o and ex-elder, a long time regular pioneer, and when i knew him a stalwart believer, went for a drink with another jw who has actually left, but is not df or anything.. in the course of conversation he came out with this bombshell "well, i am actually an atheist now, i just go along to keep my wife happy".. i also heard of a number of youngsters that i know personally who are simply living their life as they want, whilst making sure they don't get df'd for family and social reasons.. if as it seems the pimo's are a huge number, could there be a huge " awakening" where they all realize they are in a huge group, and they all say " eff it, lets call it a day on all the jw s**t ".

?.

wishful thinking, but.....just possible ?.

ohnightdivine

Any PIMO from East / Southeast Asia?

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I Waited Until My Wedding Night To Lose My Virginity And I Wish I Hadn't...

by Divergent in

i found this article interesting & just wanted to share.

after going through my teenage years trying to be the perfect jw, i realized that trying to live up to the standards imposed on me have been for worse & not for better.

i was feeling miserable, repressed, unfulfilled, with a great lack of self confidence & self esteem.

ohnightdivine

36 years and counting..

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Whatever happened to the KINGDOM SMILE???

by Latte in

jw
friends

whilst sat in my car at some temporary traffic lights recently i saw what looked like a co doing his bit of encouraging a young boy in the f.ministry , he had his hand on this young boys back (kinda distant for a dad) i smelt a co immediately!

lol.

the road was narrow, and then low and behold!

ohnightdivine

Agree with you, LongHairGal!

It's really awkward to be surrounded by people with permanent smiles...

I'm someone with a neutral expression or even RBF especially when in deep focus, but I remember my 'Bible study conductor' telling me to manage my facial expressions more. :D

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Back after 4 years!!

by ohnightdivine in

gosh i can't believe i would still be able to log in to this site after around 4 years.

i simply just forgot my password and got the lightbulb back in my head a few minutes ago.

not sure if anyone can still remember me (i was just one of those occasional passers-by a few years ago with some relatively depressing experience after waking up to ttatt).. in the last 4 years, i:.

ohnightdivine

Hi smiddy3,

Oh, I don't know about the 'preaching' work that you have there but during the occasional times that I joined the 'preaching' activity here in the area, I only had to hand over some magazines at apartment/condominium lobby reception desks. [This was another factor in my waking up to TTATT--very lax 'preaching' culture which I thought was an insult.]

After waking up to TTATT, I could no longer stomach talking about the 'truth' directly to a householder. Hence, my 'fade'. I haven't gone out on 'field service' for the last couple months or so.

OND

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Whatever happened to the KINGDOM SMILE???

by Latte in

jw
friends

whilst sat in my car at some temporary traffic lights recently i saw what looked like a co doing his bit of encouraging a young boy in the f.ministry , he had his hand on this young boys back (kinda distant for a dad) i smelt a co immediately!

lol.

the road was narrow, and then low and behold!

ohnightdivine

I had to post in here as well. The 'kingdom smile' is alive and thriving!

Even my JW 'friends' on Facebook always makes it a point to add hashtags

of that 'kingdom smile' and 'best life ever'. Oh well... whatever makes you happy.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Hi Ding, yes I think I haven't made myself clear enough... I have no intentions of marrying in the 'truth' anymore. :D

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

How is everyone now? Has anyone married another JW recently, or married 'outside the truth'?

I am still single now in my mid-30s lol.

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Back after 4 years!!

by ohnightdivine in

gosh i can't believe i would still be able to log in to this site after around 4 years.

i simply just forgot my password and got the lightbulb back in my head a few minutes ago.

not sure if anyone can still remember me (i was just one of those occasional passers-by a few years ago with some relatively depressing experience after waking up to ttatt).. in the last 4 years, i:.

ohnightdivine

Hello everyone!

Gosh I can't believe I would still be able to log in to this site after around 4 years. I simply just forgot my password and got the lightbulb back in my head a few minutes ago. :)

Not sure if anyone can still remember me (I was just one of those occasional passers-by a few years ago with some relatively depressing experience after waking up to TTATT).

In the last 4 years, I:

was extremely busy in my corporate job
because of the above, had "valid" reason to act "spiritually weak"
still went to meetings maybe once a month
completely disenganged from "light shining brighter" stuff
still believe that doing what is good is good; and doing what is bad is bad
did not engage in immoral relations whatsoever (the deeply indoctrinated ones might not know this is possible)
did not actually have any sort of romantic relationship with other people
was really really busy with work, got promoted, now left my job to stay with the family
still maintain somehow close relations with a few JW 'friends' in the congregation
am no longer participating in the 'preaching' work, only occasionally
decided that I needed to start forgetting about the emotional pain I have experienced.
noticed that even 'Special Pioneers' give up their 'privileges' to pursue romantic relations
confirmed that some of my JW 'friends' also have doubts about the organization but are just staying because of their families.

Hope everyone is well and... it's almost Christmas season!

Warm regards,

OND

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Did you AWAKEN from the JWs by yourself?

by cultBgone in

jw
friends

i was thinking about how so many posters here on jwn are frustrated and frantic to help their loved ones get away from the brainwashing of jws, and how much advice is given about how to help family members and loved ones.

i considered my own leaving and that it was internal turmoil based on the teachings getting weirder and child abuse issues, to name just a few, and it made me wonder:.

did you self-awaken or were you assisted by the gentle proddings of a friend or family member?

ohnightdivine

I was not 100% convinced this was the "only true religion" when I got dunked in the pool, and I actually read about how the WT protects its sex offenders

even before I decided to become one of the "sisters."

I needed and wanted the love bombing at the time so I chose to ignore the small voice in my head.

A few years down the road, I came to realize that there really was no genuine love in the congregation, that we were being "educated" through use of fear and guilt-inducing words, that almost all members are materialistic, some even more than other non-JW people I know. Ultimately, it was the holier-than-thou attitude that awakened me fully.

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Window-washer is the cover of Feb 2015 WT, "How to enjoy your work!" Hahaha!!

by EndofMysteries in

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after all the jokes and satire on this website about jw's only being able to amount to window washers and house cleaners, the cover page of "how to enjoy your work" showing a window washer and cleaner in the back ground.

i almost wonder if some awakened, still-in, from this site is part of the writing department or illustrations and put that in there as an inside joke for us?.

ohnightdivine

So, they didn't use a photo of someone working in an office because that would be very secular and the Gibbering Brothers don't want us to enjoy that kind of work, right?