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  little depressed...

  by jwbot in

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  i need to vent, and what better place to vent?.

  i can not get over the fact that my well-adjusted life, where i am happy, and to me, doing the right things, will always be seen as immoral by my family members and former friends.

  the recent email exchange (http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/56683/1.ashx <---yay drama) between myself and an ex best friend just makes these feelings come rushing back.

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  badolputtytat

  Hi jwbot...

  I too "know how you feel".... I am in the exact situation that you describe, and I AM faking it. I go to the meetings, sit in on studies, talk all the b.s. when in the company of my family. And of course they are accepting of me now, after almost twenty years of silence.

  But I have kept one thing in mind during all of this. The "love" that my family is showing me is just as fake, as my pretending to be a dub. It was like flipping a light-switch when I went back to the Hall..... I "turned them on" and when they find out I am faking it... the switch will undoubtedly be flipped right back off. I hope by then, the "damage" I intend to do will be done.

  I began this thing with intentions of rescuing my family from this monster. But each day that passes... I feel exactly what you describe... immoral, un-true to myself... for just pretending to "show support" . It makes me physically ill. Each time the meeting is over and I come back home to my wife... I just feel a weight off of me. I wish you all the luck with your family, but I can tell you from real experience, that faking it, won't help. It will only make you see through them even more.

  Agrees with Drwtsn though.... it is emotional blackmail... don't let it get you.
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  If ExJW's had a Theme Song....

  by Frannie Banannie in

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  would it go like this?......

  they say the neon lights are bright on (the) broadway...... they say there's always music in the air...... but how ya gonna make some time..... when you ain't got but one thin dime.... and one thin dime won't even shine your shoes........ frannie b

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  KING NOTHING (or Ode to the Watchtower) Wish I may Wish i might Have this wish tonight Are you satisfied? Dig for gold Dig for fame You dig to make your name Are you pacified? All the wants you waste All the things you've chased *And it all crashes down And you break your crown And you point your finger But there's no one around **Just want one thing Just to play the king But the castle crumbled And you've left with just a name Where's your crown? King nothing*** Hard and cold Bought and sold A heart hard as gold Are you satisfied Wish I may Wish I might You wish your life away Are you pacified All the wants you waste All the things you've chased I wish I may I wish I might Have this wish I wish tonight I want the star i want it now I want it all and i don't care how Careful what you wish Careful what you say Careful what you wish You may regret it Careful what you wish You just might get it Then it all crashes down And you break your crown And you point your finger But there's no one around KING NOTHING! ---Hetfield, Ulrich, Hammet
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  looking for consolation

  by leslane in

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  hi everyone, i'm new here as of today!

  well, having some issues and thought that you all might be gracious enough to offer some insight.

  i am a lesbian, have come out to a few friends.

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  badolputtytat

  Hi Leslane... Welcome

  I am no expert... and I haven't read all the replies... but being gay certainly isn't the only reason for avoiding being dunked in the bath-tub... if you are looking to "delay" the thing, just tell him you have other issues. Maybe suggest that you are just having doubts.... or you could just fail the test questions. Maybe express one little tiny disagreement when the elders give you the questions.

  Whatever you do, don't let your sexuality become the main issue. That just gives them an excuse to "de-program" you.

  Anyway... You are welcome here, I am sure I speak for the majority in saying that

  ---puttytat
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  Deep Down Inside, Are You Prejudiced???

  by minimus in

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  if you can be really honest with yourself, do you think that you exercise prejudice at times?

  are you a person that makes disparaging remarks about certain groups because they are different from you?

  if you feel that you're not a prejudiced person, do you see yourself stereotyping?

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  badolputtytat

  Being raised up north I was not really exposed to rascism.... but I moved to Georgia some years ago... Near Macon, and Robins Air Force Base.

  I was shocked to know that this archaic idea still exists anywhere in the U.S. (maybe I didnt get out enough as a dub??)

  People still refer to each other by their race, no matter what the situation. We were eating in restaraunt (average plate was about thirty dollars... not like it was the Waffle House)... I heard a man say very loudly... "Will you tell that BLACK GAL who is serving us to hurry up, I am late". And some people will refuse to be served by people of color.... and the restaraunts will often COMPLY with the request.... so weird. I just want to scream at them... "Hey man... it's not like you are going to turn black if she touches you!!!"

  People around here use the "N" word very commonly. I am continuously offered to join ether the "Sons of the Confederacy" or the KKK. . . . I just keep thinking "Are you for real? or are you just kidding?".... but no... they PULL OUT THEIR CARD and show it to you. I just give them this look... YOU REALLY NEED TO GET OUT MORE... the war IS OVER.

  Some of the older ones here still keep confederate money locked away... they are just determined that the south will "rise again".... oh brother.... Sorta funny though... like watching "The Beverly Hillbillies" or something... Granny still has her gun.
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  Hi! I just got here...

  by Frannie Banannie in

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  yup...just got here and already jumped in for a few posts....hope yall're all okay...my life's been a little sucky lately, but things are perkin' up....getting the detritus out of my life and takin' a new path where work is concerned....is everyone here an active jw or what?.

  frannie b

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  badolputtytat

  Hiya Frannie... Nice ta meet ya.... Welcome to the board

  Turned in MY book-bag and time card, around 1980 something???

  ----puttytat

  Hey Simon... <------------ this is a cat, right?
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  Question for the Prophets and "JC Cannon" types(seriously)

  by badolputtytat in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i am just curious.

  i am not trying to badger anyone or start something.

  so don't anyone get all upset and start tellin' me i am censoring you or judging anyone.

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  badolputtytat

  No really... I aint trying to badger the guy... He knows how I feel already... I was just trying to get a straight answer out of the guy without mathematics lesson. 462 x7 + 4 hundred years...still equals 4000 volts running through him... 'lectro shock therapy.... But that part is HIS problem... I just wanna know why the drive to post it like that... I mean.. I type about 80 words per minute... I figure with the length and frequency of his posts... the last time he had sex... was when he was on earth the FIRST time.

  Don't Worry Jcanon .... relax... They WILL come soon enough... bzzz bzzz ... but I have to give it to you for being nice.
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  Question for the Prophets and "JC Cannon" types(seriously)

  by badolputtytat in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i am just curious.

  i am not trying to badger anyone or start something.

  so don't anyone get all upset and start tellin' me i am censoring you or judging anyone.

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  badolputtytat

  these X-JW boards fulfill Bible prophecy

  You are not serious are you?

  when the Messiah arrives he has to "teach in our broadways", that is, the broadways of those "sons of the kingdom" who end up getting rejected but still are there.

  So you are saying that we are some some sort of twisted version of the "sons of the kingdom" who have been rejected?

  Ok... at least you are the first person I ever asked that question to, who at least tried to give me a serious answer. I just don't see "us" as the lost sons of the kingdom.

  thus there is no real "recuitment" going on here, just a scenario to basically show that even if Christ openly exposed himself and showed the scriptures involved that should convince one who he is by scripture, he would still be rejected until for the most part it is too late.

  So you don't really believe you are ... him? you are just trying to prove the point that you state above... that is... that if you WERE him, we would still ridicule you????

  The one "fault" I find with this thing

  Christ must be able to "teach" in some forum that is witness connected. But obviously it can't be in the Watchtower. And it has to be "broadways", that is, in some PUBLIC type of forum.

  This site is not in any way connected with the watctower or with Jehovah's Witnesses.... It seems that the Nazarene would not come to a place where the whole concept of this belief is rejected. (maybe not by everyone here... but the majority)

  Nevertheless, I didn't ask the question to argue a point... I just wanted to know, and I suppose .... now I know the REST of the story. Look, I sorta made a little pact with myself that I wouldn't torment the four of you any longer (2 for you and 2 for Aguest) It just makes absolutely no sense to me

  I mean you have read the posts here.... you know that most of us are pretty realistic people. There are some fairly educated folks that frequent this site (not me, I know) I just do not understand why you would CONTINUE to post, if almost everyone that replies, disputes you... .Then you spend the rest of the thread trying to justify the thing, with numbers and dates.... I JUST DONT GET IT> ok?

  But Thank you for your answer... it has made me feel pretty confident about myself.

  puttytat
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  WT Publication Index '96-'99 and WT LIBRARY 1999 Disc .. Will Mail free

  by badolputtytat in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  i have the four publication index books dated 96-99. and the entire watchtower library disc 1999 original not a copy) with the complete instruction book.

  the cd includes the entire new world translation, and a dozen or so books dated back to 1963. also the awakes and dozens of tracts and booklets.

  pretty hefty stuff.

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  badolputtytat

  Thanx Drwtsn.... Kazaa has been suggested.... I am working on making copies, but getting many requests... no problem though... give me something to do.

  I am trying to put the whole disc on. Any suggestion about sharing this publicly would be appreciated...

  thought: What if I put it on the web posing as a Jehovah's witness... you know... Sharing the "good news"?????

  Help
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  WT Publication Index '96-'99 and WT LIBRARY 1999 Disc .. Will Mail free

  by badolputtytat in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  i have the four publication index books dated 96-99. and the entire watchtower library disc 1999 original not a copy) with the complete instruction book.

  the cd includes the entire new world translation, and a dozen or so books dated back to 1963. also the awakes and dozens of tracts and booklets.

  pretty hefty stuff.

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  badolputtytat

  I have received many e-mails... Yall just give me a couple days to make enough copies to go around, but I am working on it. Those who offered to pay postage... FORGET IT....

  I also am working on getting this on an FTP thingie... but I am a little lost with the ftp that I downloaded... never used it before... Have any suggestions? ( I cannot put this on a site in my name... family issues)

  Hang in there folks... I am getting this stuff out as quickly as I can... LL you are first dear!
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  Therapy?

  by StinkyPantz in

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  okay, i think i'm crazy; and i think i need therapy.

  well here's a rundown of my life: .

  born; molested by cousin; best friend murdered by her father; eating disorder; abusive boyfriends; betrayed by best friend of 15 years; disfellowshipped; married after 6 months of dating; disowned by family; moved cross-country where i don't know anyone (this is only a partial list of course).

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  badolputtytat

  I would bet my putty-tail that this has something to do with it.... heredity is a SERIOUS factor.

  But it makes the anxiety no less... I know the hell it can put you through.

  Get it checked though.... the "condition" can take a sudden turn without warning... fine one day, and the next, you feel like your ovaries were hooked up to a truck battery or something ... it can really get ya.

  Pm me anytime...

  ((((((stinky)))))))