I def can. I feel like I live in my own world, and have to act when at meetings, or when spiritual things come up. Keep in mind, active MS here, bordering on Elder, but have avoided it through a couple of congo moves.
I sort of compare it to being unjacked from the matrix. Once bible truth, and the reality of this cult comes to light, there is no turning back. Apostate is just fancy for someone who can "see", or "feel".
I highly reccomend the movies "They Live", and "Equilibrium" to understand what it's like to be stuck in any cult for family reasons, and yet being completely aware that you are in a farse.
However, at times, when listening to the slick arguments at times, I catch myself saying, damn. Simple answers to a complex world, dont' ask questions and this is how you can live your life. No wonder so many generations of suckers fall for it. The best place to hide a lie is in between two truths, and that is what is going in on in all the false christian cults(Mormons, Seventh Day Adventists, Moonies), including JW.