Punk - agreed. You can't just believe when you don't (at least I can't).
Actually I'm pretty happy. Would I be even happier if I truly believed that I would be resurrected and would live forever in paradise and meet dead friends and relatives again? Well, maybe. Would I be happier if other people didn't believe they would live forever etc? Definitely. There are way too many nutjobs around who think their murderous activities are guaranteeing them a place in heaven.