Posts by Confucious

i am so upset ,,its hard to even write this out...but i know i must.....someof you know of my past...coming from a very difficult marriage with a so--called annointed one.. who made my life and the lives of my 5 children.

a living hell.....i only have one daughter in the borg...but even tho i am dis associated she still talks to me....i moved to texas to be near my daughter and my grand kids...but now i am being ostrasized for helping my schizophrenic son (24),,who couldnt make it on his own in north dakota...... and my son almost didnt make it to texas as he was thrown off the bus for smoking and abandoned... i went on a mission to find him.....by backtracking and giving out flyers of his picture with my phone ..number on it.

as it happened someone recognized him and i got him back....safe but not sound..... so now my daughters and their boyfriends have disowned me for taking him in....why i am not really sure....but with everyday mydepression gets worse....i have been hospitalized for attempted suicide many times...and theythink i am making up this shit..... just recently i was hospitalized ,,,for another suicide attempt... i think iwill make the next one stick...my brother killed himself at 38,,, no one knew the horrible secrets in his life and the family didnt want to know......now hes gone...leavingbehind 3 daughters and 2 grand daughters.. do they even know the pain and torments i have endured for soo long being in a cult...my 21 yr old daugher willlnever forgive me for what i did toher... sheis out now... but her sister is still in and i know its tearing her apart....my 24 yr old son is schizophrenic and may never be normal....but i am taking care of him as the rest ofthe family have abandoned him to my care....ha i cant even take care of me...for christs sake... for those of you i met at dallas in may,,,you know me right could i really be capable of being so selfish...so uncaring......i need your prayers and strength to get me thru this now.... there were so many things i couldnt do,, when my kids were being abused... i had to be submissive to that fucking jerk...he hurt me ,,, the borg hurt me....everyone gets hurt..... but this may be the straw that broke the camels back....words can and do hurt ,,, i can only say sorry to them so much.....but their dad willnever do that..he willnever make there hurt go away..... i just need ed to be heard as my daughters do not want me to talk to them....and it is breaking my heart in two so imust get my book done..before i am gone for good.....shalom my dear friends

Confucious

We care here.

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Welcome my sister to JWD!

by MelbaToast in

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hey.. i know you're lurking around here somewhere sis.

why dont you introduce yourself?.

fyi: i have been talking to my sister (who is also df'd) about how this board has helped me.

Confucious

Is she hot???

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Finally Feeling Good Again... Thanks Friends.

by Confucious in

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hey guys, .

wow.

corvin.

Confucious

Hey Guys,

Wow.

Too many to name. Corvin. Lady Lee. Brummie Shoot. So many of you.

Recently I had a bout with Depression.

Actually, I've had it SEVERELY for about 3 years now.

And it comes and goes... But it's much like Diabetes... (appologies to anyone who has diabetes.)

But I have a medical condition (depression) that comes and goes.

I would attribute 90 perecent of it to the WT world.

Before that, I would get blue. But I've learned to know the difference between the blues and depression.

Anyway, I wanted everyone here to know that I'm doing a little better now.

Love all of you.

Confucious