Would You Ever Think About Taking Your Life??? (page 2)

atypical

I have thought about it, but I couldn't ever really do it. One of my close friends just killed himself, and I feel it was because of his status with the jws, mixed with the fact that he still thought it was the truth. He was the second JW I've know personally who killed himself. I definitely think there is a connection.

lonelysheep

Have you ever been in such despair that the thought crossed your mind?

Yes, plenty of times.

Did being a Jehovah's Witness have anything to do with your mindset?

Yes, although I'd thought about it both before and after being with jw's. During that time, the whole guilt thing got to me really bad. I'm glad I made it through.

atypical

I meant to say I think there is a connection between suicide and the jw mindset -

DanTheMan

I think about it quite often. It's probably my competitive drive that keeps me from doing it. I'm not ready to accept total defeat, at least not yet. If I were to lose my job, I might feel at that point that it is time to throw in the towel.

blondie

I thought about suicide in the past.

It had nothing directly to do with being a JW but being trapped in a home with a non-JW abusive pedophile.

I no longer think about it but I do remember those days.

Blondie

blondie

PS I thought equally if not more about fratricide.

Mary

I thought about a couple of times, but both were due to physical pain.......the one time, I had had an 'operation' on a tooth but they had to go in through my gum instead of the normal fashion. Something happened where it damaged a nerve but over the next few months I was told it was called Trigeminal Neuralgia and there was nothing they could do. Basically, the doctor said that the protective 'shielding' around some of the nerves had been damaged. He then said "imagine Star Wars going on in your head but you've got no shield to protect yourself." The pain was unlike anything I had ever experienced. It would start at the top of my head, and travel down my face and eye and no amount of medication did anything. I took an entire bottle of Percacet within 12 hours to try and dull the pain and it did absolutely nothing.

It may sound silly now, but at the time, the pain was so horrific that I did consider walking out into the road and letting a Mac truck hit me---I kid you not. The attacks would come with no warning and last up to 30 minutes each time.

T he other time was just before I discovered I had uterene cancer. The doctor had put be on a double dosage of The Pill to try and stop me hemorraging, but which gave me a lovely blood clot in my leg. I lost so much blood that my immune system was affected, I came down with bronchitis, I had a blood clot in my leg and I had this horrific pain in my stomach (which of course was the cancer growing). There was about 2 weeks there where I seriously wished I was dead.

stillajwexelder

many years ago when suffering from clinical depression -YES

ButtLight

many years ago when suffering from clinical depression -YES

Same here, twice. But never actually tried it. Well, kinda tried it, but I was stopped by my ex bf!

bikerchic

I lived most of my life being suicidal. There was hardly ever a minute of any given day I did not think about dying and wishing for it.

It took Redecision Therapy and many years of struggling with overcoming this deeply entrinched desire to kill myself. It was hard work and most of the time I was fighting with myself. Gradually and very slowly I let go of that desire until one day, one entire day I had not thought of suicide at all, then I went from 1 to 100 and so it went until it was no longer a way for me to excape life. I learned coping tools to get me through the tough times.

Now I seldom think of suicide, it's probably been 4 years since I actually entertained the idea. Suicide is a cop out, life is real and not for the faint of heart, but I choose life. I'm tough but more importantly I love myself and I love my life, warts and all.

Would You Ever Think About Taking Your Life???

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