Just when things were getting interesting with your posts, I found I myself locked out of the forum as well. A little while ago when I started reading what I'd missed, viruses started trying to pop up all over the place on my computer! Now that I've engaged my anonymity programs, things have quieted down.
Well, Ritchie, I guess you got your wish to go out with a bang! I doubt the elders are being very honest with you about who tipped them off to your activities here. The fact that it hit the fan right after you posted the pages from that annotated elder's manual is just too indicative that the "mother" organization is behind your current crisis. One person observed that they fear you and I am inclined to agree. If the manual itself becomes a big issue, then you can bet on it.
Knowing the way any JW parent feels when their child takes the course you've taken, I am sure that your mother is very hurt right now. Remember, Ritchie, that the organization is her world, her god, and her reality. I know, I've been there. For her to see her son take the road of "apostacy" is cutting her to the core. If she doesn't toss you out on your ears, then you have a rare dub mother.
Now I haven't said that to make you feel bad or shake you from your chosen course. It would be a bit hypocritical of me, a fader, to be going down that road. While I was yet a Dub, I had a daughter who left both my family and the organization and took up a lifestyle of drugs and immorality, so I know how your mother is feeling right now. That she is not answering your phone calls tells me that she is thinking some things over and coming to some decisions. That she avoided the elders last night tells me that she wants to make those decisions herself, rather than let the elders dictate them to her. that she is taking so much time to do that tells me that those decisions are not easy for her and that is not inclined to do what the elders would demand. Though, in the end, she may not have much of a choice.
She does not have to kick you out Ritchie. She can perfectly well keep you in the home until she judges you able to go out on your own. And the elders would be way off base to demand otherwise. Its just that the way she will treat you if she does will be different if you are disfellowshipped. I know this because I didn't kick my daughter out. She left because I wouldn't allow her the freedom to do some of the things she wanted, and which I didn't approve of then, or would not approve of now.
Whatever happens from this point, Ritchie, I add my voice to those wishing you the best. However things happen, you are going to be in for some rough times. But freedom is never easy. And you have to break some eggs in order to make a fine omlet. Do what you must, friend.
Forscher
