What I want to know is, what am I supposed to believe now?
I notice you already believe that it is necessary to possess "belief".
And what is belief but holding something to be true which is not and cannot be proved true.
In other words, you seem to be saying:'
"I find it necessary to consider unproved things true. The last unproved thing I believed to be true bit me in the butt. What is another unproved belief I can hold?"
See? When I say it like that it makes you look silly or foolish.
But, honestly, it comes down to your premise in your thinking.
Why do you START OUT THINKING it is necessary in the first place to hold unproven things as true?
A false premise will____always____lead to false conclusions.
Why not just let go of that addiction to "belief"?
Can you do it?
Why wouldn't you?
Try for a year...just one year...hold only facts as worth thinking about and acting on. Live a practical life instead of a theoretical one.
Engage your rational mind. Sharpen it. Disable the imagination as far as illusion, delusion, conjecture, fantasy and magic-thinking when it leads to core values for your life.
You can live a very practical and worthwhile life if you develop values based on reality.
Unreality, fantasy and belief are for people who choose not to deal with the real word. They engage in a make-believe world that softens the edges of life and holds out bright promises of better things to come.
It is like putting your hand in front of your eyes so you won't see the speedometer going into the red zone so you can enjoy the exhilaration of speeding without facing the dangers involved.
Out of sight; out of mind is no basis for living. Belief is toying with the unreal and treating it as though it were very much more real than fact itself.
Give it up. It doesn't work for anybody very long.
I work in a bookstore in the Religion section. It is filled with books purporting to help believer's figure out why their lives are STILL A MESS even though they believe!
Get off the treadmill. More effort and more belief are a waste of energy.
Get on with simply living in the real world. It works.
Terry