You make me laugh and you break my heart.

by seven006 43 Replies latest jw friends

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  seven006

  Comf,
  I guess I don't know what has come over me. I am going through a very tough time right now and I have spent too much time on this board. I hate it when I get all serious. You are right, It's not like me. I am just trying to divert my attention form the things I need to do in my life right now. Because of the economic downturn we have lost three of the large contracts we were counting on and as of Tuesday we have shut the design firm down. For the first time in my life I am going to have to go look for work. It's a little on the weird side. It must be effecting me, I haven't made a joke in over a week. I think it just hit me, I'm a little fucked up right now. Damn, thats hard to admit.

  Thanks for being so cool about all of this.

  Dave
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  RedhorseWoman

  Dave, I know some of what you've been going through. I am SO sorry that it has come to this. Take some time, regroup, and present your talent to the world once again. How can they help but notice you? ****HUGS*****
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  COMF

  I'm inclined to invite you to apply where I work. My department head, Jim, mentioned today for the third time that he is looking to add someone to our group who can focus on graphics. I'm the resident ASP, VB/COM, ADO and SQL guy; three of us are Cold Fusion headbangers; and a couple more take care of the hardware end of things. Jim is the only one with any extensive graphics experience, and he's too busy heading up the department to be able to do it.

  Downside: 1) we're in Texas, not California, and 2) as a freelancer, you're likely accustomed to earning more than we would want to offer here.

  Still, if you want details, feel free to email me. Hope all goes well for you in your search.

  COMF
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  seven006

  Gail,
  Thank you, you know how much I appreciate you. The web game is still going to stay alive for a while but it can no longer afford to pay me. I had to leave to keep it alive. If it gets funded I'll go back. Right now I have to do what I have to do. Your such a sweetheart and I love your guts.

  Comf,
  I'd kiss ya if you weren't a guy and so damn ugly. I appreciate you concern and I'm sorry for my weirdness the past few days. I just am a little screwed up right now. I have been asked to look into a marketing directors job that I think I may try and get. I just hate the damn corporate bullshit and politics. Oregon now leads the country in unemployment at well over 6% and I just heard that Intel and Fujitsu laid off a lot of people this week. Things are looking real sucky up here. If I didn't have my boys here Id move.

  Thanks man

  Dave
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  noidea

  Dave,

  Thank you for this post.
  Yes, some will call foul, take offense at your words. I for one would like to say to those that do. "Stand back and look at the whole picture". Not just the frame of the movie you participate in, the whole picture.

  This board has helped in the healing for so many so that have reach out for help. When I first began to lurk here there was so much information to glean. It was like seeing the WBTS through a glass house, getting information that really reconfirmed that it was okay to have doubts, in fact there were good reasons to.

  When a new lurker comes to this board and all they see is how the members of this board do nothing more then bash each other, they are going to cut tail and run before they even get a chance to appreciate all the hard work that is done here. Where are they going to go? Back to the KH?

  The WBTS has taken from everyone on this board in some way or another. This board is like a band-aid it helps the healing. Many are closing the lid on that box
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  I don't think that Simon should have to change anything on this board. We are all adults or most of us are. Maybe there should be a separate forum for bashing only. Put those of you in a separate room to duke it out for yourselves and leave the board open for those that need healing but don't have the time or energy to sift through the bullshit. Many of you have found your happy place in life please let others try and find theirs before they are sucked in to the gloves off tactics and forget why they came here in the first place.

  The boys in Bethel must be yelling "see, there in no unity you can only get that from us". yeah, right. All the bashing is making them so proud.
  For the life of others can we all try and pull together whether we like each other or not and help those that are going through major life changes a place of refuge.
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  WildHorses

  Farkel and Comf, I feel honored. Both of you replied to my post...

  Comf you are so right......Don't think that your own perception must of necessity be wrong and ours right any time they don't match. If you learn only one thing from me, I hope it will be to believe in yourself and rely on yourself

  I have always felt unsure of myself, and wonder sometime if what I have to say is worth saying. That is why I tend to lurk more than post here. I think my grandmother is the reason I am this wayas, when I was a child she always said that children are to be seen and not heard. I took it to heart.

  I am generaly a shy person until I get to know someone. Then when I feel comfortable, I will open up and share my thoughts. I hate rejection and if a person responds to my post in a negitive way, I take it personal and feel rejected. I am working on that but it is slow going.

  Anyway, I do have deep respect for you and Farkel (Doug) and I will continue to have that respect even when we disagree......

  Lilacs
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  COMF

  I like reading your comments, Lilacs. Glad to know that you are aware of an area that can use some improvement, and are working on it. It sure beats the alternatives: not knowing, or worse yet, knowing but not doing anything about it!

  David Crosby sez:
  Your mother's ghost stands at your shoulder
  Face like ice--a little bit colder
  Saying to you
  "You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules"

  ...or, grandmother's ghost...

  Anyway, the condemning voice of your grandmother can be replaced; replaced by your own approving voice. Speak well to, and of, yourself. Be proud of yourself! And, say to yourself that you are proud of yourself! Look yourself in the eye, in the mirror, and say, "I love you." And then smile approvingly.

  COMF

  (Hey... it works for me!)
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  lauralisa

  BIG BUMP
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  puzzled

  Hey Lisa you may be on to something.

  bttt all the old threads that will remind people this is supposed to be a family.....of sorts
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  jgnat

  I love this place. So many personalities; the emotions are real and heartfelt. Even if the tender ears of JW lurkers are offended at times, I hope they notice that the freedom of expression here is a delight and, as long as everyone fights fair, does no harm.

  I have had many arguments with my son, who is an anarchist, about some of the same things that have been argued here. Every civilization has rules, written or no. I think the violent reaction is partly due to our common history. There is the fear that rules and moderators will make this board another WTS. There is no comparison.