I always had doubts growing up. BUt I kept on because it was everything I knew.
In 1995 I really got that sinking feeling with the generation change.
It wasn't until 10 years later 2004/5 that I finally had enough and was willing to lay it all on the line.
It wasn't because I liked giving public talks or announcements or going to special schools as a Ministerial Servant that I hung on. I hung on because of the people I loved so much and I didn't want to disappoint. I felt I had a responsibility to toe the party line no matter what and that me questioning was my selfish imperfect tendancies.
I can only imagine that someone like Ray Franz with his level of responsibility had much more concerns than me. He didn't have the Internet either, and tons of others that had gone through the same thing as him that he could reach at the drop of a hat like we do.
There would be legions of ex-JWs organized together, with or without Ray Franz. So I doubt his leaving had anything to do with him wanting a bunch of followers.
-ithinkisee