What Emotion Do You Have Now Because You Were One Of Jehovah's Witnesses? (page 4)

juni

Welcome Kong!

You made very good points so as to avoid being sucked in to something that you should avoid. Applies to all aspects of life.

Anxious to have more postings by you.

Juni

Quandry

Estee

I just read the post you referred to about your meeting with the da'd person at the mall, and how the elders had shown no mercy after your mother had just died.

I can't help it. Even though I haven't been to meetings in about one and a half years, I get so angry when I find out something like this. How would Jesus have treated you? Certainly not coldly and without mercy. In the Bible it says that mercy is God's most appealing quality. I want mercy and not sacrifice?

I can't help but think that when you were at your lowest point, perhaps God sent this person to you to comfort you.

I know that when we left, because of the horrendous way our daughter was treated, worldly people stepped up to the plate and treated us kindly in unexpected ways.

I am telling my story on a thread not my own. It is on the one about how would bethelites feel about these. I don't know why I started it on someone else's thread. It just started coming out. Anyway, you can read a similarly horrific tale of cold cruel treatment at the hands of authoritative b-st--ds.

I hope that you are feeling better now. Thank you for sharing with us and I will continue to send good thoughts your way.

candidlynuts

i'm not sure what the word is.... but since i've quit going to meetings and exploring the truth about the watchtower i'm more jaded, cynical?

if what i believed since i was born is bullshit then what the heck is the sense in putting myself thru believing ANYTHING anymore?

IronClaw

Angry. Guess I haven't been out long enough yet to get over it. Only time will tell. Until then they better stay out of my way.

The Claw.

ESTEE

Quandry wrote:

I can't help but think that when you were at your lowest point, perhaps God sent this person to you to comfort you. ... I know that when we left, because of the horrendous way our daughter was treated, worldly people stepped up to the plate and treated us kindly in unexpected ways. ... I am telling my story on a thread not my own. It is on the one about how would bethelites feel about these. I don't know why I started it on someone else's thread. It just started coming out. Anyway, you can read a similarly horrific tale of cold cruel treatment at the hands of authoritative b-st--ds. ... I hope that you are feeling better now. Thank you for sharing with us and I will continue to send good thoughts your way

Yes, indeed my life has taken some wonderful turns for the better. Like I said on another post, I thank the elders now for "showing me the door." Because the jw religion was all I had ever known before, being born and raised into it. Thanks for your kind words. I have read your post on the other thread and my heart goes out to you for the shabby treatment. Thanks for sharing your feelings with everyone. I continue to send positive vibes to you and everyone on this site.

ESTEE

Thinking . . . Minimus starts some great threads . . . thanks min

TheKings

it was like waking up from a dream. leaving them wasn't enough, i had to find out that not only was it not for me, it was blatantly false...then it all melted away and i had power over the guilt i was saddled with.

i'm too busy enjoying my freedom to be angry...but then again i still have much of my young life still ahead of me. for someone who had been enslaved for more than half their life i can imagine it is much different.

Mary

I'm angry and bitter that I was lied to about everything I believed to be true. I'm also angry that they're still enforcing shunning of family members when someone doesn't happen to agree with what 12 jackasses in New York are spinning as "present truths".

There's really no words to describe how you feel when you discover that the entire foundation of your life was indeed "built on sand".

youcanhaveago

Basically and overwhelmingly depressed .

I feel like a loved one has commited adultery and I am the innocent party.

I have mud on my boots and I'm trying to claw myself away and to freedom. It ain't easy.

Alpheta

Welcome M. Kong.

I don't think it's "stupid" to want to seek out a knowledge of god - whatever you choose to call that god. I do, though, feel rather stupid for falling for the WTBTS cult. I thought I was smarter than that. Only goes to show, I either am not as smart as I think I am (or was) or I'm still incredibliy naive even after all these years. Somehow, neither thought is particularly edifying. I had a post-college degree and years of "worldly" experience, I thought I had at least some savvy as in "been there, done that," and yet I still voluntarily committed myself to the WTBTS as an adult "convert." What's that scripture - I forget by whom - that talked about beware of how you're standing lest you take a sudden fall (or something like that), he sure had it right! Only I apply it quite dfifferently to my circumstances that the Witnesses do!

We can all be schmucks, given the right circumstances. The thing is to be able to forgive oneself - and I've always been able to forgive myself for my particular "sins". Perhaps having a health sense of self-worth has something to do with that or, in my case, perhaps that's an exaggerated sense of self-worth but hey, whatever works. I've read so many sad stories here, of people SOOOOO beaten down that they thought they weren't even dirt. It breaks my heart, and it makes me so angry, not for me - I got out with no harm, really. It makes me so angry on their behalves, that so many people had to suffer so much - and are still suffering so much.

I tell you, I've asked myself and I wonder what the heck am I doing here - what do I have in common with these people who have suffered so much? I'm not sure about that, and maybe I'll never have a really good answer, but I feel I should be here right now.

anewme

At first I viewed my 35 years as a JW and dfing as a huge catastrophe!
People around me marveled and wondered at my severe gut wrenching angst and anxiety attacks about the whole thing. My loss about it ran my life for four years til I found this website.

I have been posting for over a year now and in that time my mind and heart have healed so much!
I think keeping in contact with one JW is holding me back from entirely breaking free from the sadness of this religion.
Lately I have been dreaming of a whole new life.....different than I ever dreamed of before.....free of the great sadness and seriousness that the JW religion held over my heart.

I would say a GREAT CALM is taking over my heart these days.

Anewme

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