my very personal history!

by weary 33 Replies latest jw experiences

  • becca1
    becca1

    Welcome! You are not alone. Those of us raised in the truth have a distorted way of viewing life. The standards we were made to uphold were so strict few of us could live up to them. That brings with it a constant cycle of self defeat. It looks like you've reached the point of finally breaking that cycle. Go get some qualified help with your drinking problems and stick around here for support. It's never too late to start over. I'm 47 and just started down this road in June. It's not easy but it's better than the alternative of staying stuck in a destructive cycle.

    Take care...

  • misguided
    misguided

    Weary, Cindi...I TOTALLY understand...and can relate entirely to what you are feeling.

    I pm'd you.

    Rose

  • Abandoned
    Abandoned

    Yikes! I'm forty as well and while I didn't grow up in the wt, I can relate to the rest of what you wrote. I've been out for over four years now and I'm just starting to see that my value isn't based on how much I've done or who I obey. It took me this long to finally talk to other people about this painful part of my life.

    There is life after wt though. It may take you awhile to figure out how messed up you are but eventually you will. :-)

  • Vic-ex
    Vic-ex

    I'm new here too but can't believe I have found people who have gone through the same thing as me. I left 6 years ago (28) and i decided to slowly drift away. my plan took 2 years to accomplish though - i needed to move out, get a better job and make some friends out of the religion. i did it all and drifted away so as not to put my paretns in an ackward situation. Slowly but surely you do get over it and move on with your life. i'm lucky that i've got my husband and his understanding family.

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    Vic-ex, I am so proud of you.

    i needed to move out, get a better job and make some friends out of the religion. i did it all and drifted away so as not to put my paretns in an ackward situation.

    You did this WITHOUT the guidance and support of a board like this. It is so much easier if things like finances and living arrangements are taken care of FIRST before people make their move. You also took care of your emotional health by finding new friends. You are a very atute lady.

  • codeblue
    codeblue

    Welcome: Weary, Cindi and Vic

    It is very difficult to be the only one in your family that knows the real truth about the truth(tm). Real integrity has it's price.

    Thanks for sharing part of your life. The people here are VERY supportive and kind.

  • outnfree
    outnfree

    Welcome to the newbies!

    Weary -- what is your relationship with your brothers? Could they be of help to you with advice on how they deal with your parents and by relating the feelings they had to deal with once they left? Or have they, too, bought into "I got what I deserved because I'm not serving Jehovah as the Society says I should"?

    Cindy and Vic-Ex - Good on you!

    (((Balsam))) I didn't know your story. Bless you for working with AJWRB.

    out

  • hambeak
    hambeak

    You are experiencing what most here have already experienced and some still are. You will get unconditional love and understanding here. You are in our thoughts. Please remember alcohol is a depressant so don't let too much of it control you. Remember you are a beautiful and wonderful person. Hang in there and once you are free of the grip of the wts and are free you will find true happiness.

  • Pioneer Spit...oh, i mean Spirit
    Pioneer Spit...oh, i mean Spirit

    Weary,

    Thanks for your story! Thank you for joining us here, you are stronger than you realize. We have all been where you are right now, so most important: Remember that you are loved, lovable, and if you believe in GOD, God loves you--the Bible says so--and you don't have to JUMP for it.

    Hugs and welcome!

    Catfish

  • penny2
    penny2

    Welcome

    weary

    Cindi_67 and

    Vic-ex

    You're in a good place here. Hope you find much comfort.

    penny2

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