KidA judging from what you wrote below on a different thread, imho, you have quite a lot in common with JT.
My moment of final epiphany was when I was about 15, sitting out on a deck by a river in Northern Ontario on a gorgeous sunny July day.
I had spent the summer reading Nietzsche, Freud and a book of Zen Ko'ans, so I was ripe for self-revelation.....I just felt this intrinsic oneness with
my environment, the crisp air, the sun, the water, nature and everything within it and I realized....this is it....this is real and this is ALL there is.
At that point I realized I needed no foolish beliefs and fears of ancient sky-gods or mortal prophets claiming to speak on "divine" authority.
Nature, biology, evolution and its endless mysteries.....this was and is the only 'divinity' I would ever need again.
It was the deepest most profound sense of peace and relief I have ever known in a singular moment.....
I wasborn the day that the gods died.
just my opinion.
bernadette