I am curious today about people that cannot wake up. I have a problem with waking up. I do not hear alarms. I actually can sit up, talk and function and appear to be awake and yet I am not. This causes me a lot of problems because I say mean stuff, or untrue things, such as, " I took the day off, " and people believe me and let me be. Meanwhile I oversleep and mess my job up or piss a friend off because of this.
I have even slept through the house alarm and was woke up by the police knocking at my door.
I don't really have a way to describe it except it feels like I have a vaccum seal on my head. Even when I first wake up for a while, sometimes up to an hour, I can't hear correctly. I am very connfused and cannot tell if things in my dream are real or if they really happened. I dream very vividly all the time. It is almost exhausting really. When I do wake up my whole body tingles a lot like when a foot or arm falls asleep and you get that annoying burn and tingle. I also actually feel and hear my head lose that vaccuum feel and my hearing come in.
I am so frusterated by this because people do not understand. They try to help. They place calls to me and I answer the phone and tell them I am awake. I am not. I run the risk of being late every day, and when stressed it gets worse. It seems to be something that is a really bad thing to have, very annoying to myself and others, and I don't have a clue what to do. I buy more alarms just to sleep through them or get up and turn them all off in 5 minute snooze intervals over and over. Friends call trying to help and when it is not a quick fix like they think it should be, they add to the stress by gripping me out or making fun of me. It really is a cruel and ununderstanding thing to do.
It really is hurtful because I cant seem to get anyone to understand that this is not something I choose. Do you really think I want to miss out on half my life? OR...risk my job, or get a gripe session from my friends everyday?
I swear if I stay up late, at times I will just end up staying up all night because I am afraid to fall asleep and not be able to wake up.
I was not always this way. When I lived in the SW and dry areas I was wide awake. one alarm and no problems. But then I moved to Missouri and it was as if I fell asleep and never woke up. Since then I have been in more moist areas such as Texas. I can't help but wonder if that has anything to do with it. Maybe allergies? Lately I noticed that there is this ringing in my ears and I could not hear anything just this sound like the ocean really loud. A lady at work said it was allergies and to take sinus medicine. It worked. I could just hear the pressure release out of my ears. I wonder if this sleep thing works anything like that?
Does anyone know where to start to get help? Does anyone have this problem? What have you done to solve it?