Now she's scared:
I cannot answer your questions. Not if I want to do them justice. However, if you go to your local Kingdom Hall, I'm sure they'd be more than happy to set you up with someone. Or, if you live within the US, you can submit the form on the website. Go to http://www.watchtower.org and click on the CONTACT US link located in the browse box. Fill out your name and address and phone number and someone close to you will contact you.
Have you been disfellowshipped?
Safiyah