If you've got even just a few extra brain cells that others, it is almost impossible to feel comfortable in a state of ignorance:
Me???? Have extra brain cells??? WHOO HOO!!!
For example, when something doesn't add up, it creates discomfort.
I agree. That happened to me years ago. I had lots of unexplainable questions until I started digging around a bit.
The discomfort I feel now with knowing and losing my family is far greater than the discomfort I had before finding out the truth about the organization.
Sometimes ignorance is bliss.