MRP - welcome.
I agree with your last statement:
Remember, its between you and Jehovah God.
The organization needs to remember that too. However, they put themselves in the position of God and deem many of us here on this board as unfit associates. Frankly, by being here, it doesn't matter all the wonderful things you (think you) do on God's behalf - you are violating the very belief system you are here to defend. You should be disfellowshipped.... you KNOW that's true. You're associating with apostates.
Frankly, I don't care about all the crap the WTS does... to me, it's like any other organization. However, depression is literally an epidemic in the organization (and everywhere) - making it no different than the "world". It's an outright lie to say that JW's are happier than any other group. It's just not true, MRP!
JW's do some wonderful things. For instance - teaching not going to war. I think that's commendable, and the fact that no witness will actually enlist in an army is different than most religious organizations. However, do you honestly believe you would have the freedom to choose NOT to got to war, if it wasn't for those who did? That doesn't make it right, I get that. However, It's an interesting point to consider.
What I do care about is being the very best I can be. Contributing positively to society. Adding something genuine and loving to other human's lives. I care about living the best life that I can, in as close alignment to what I read in God's Word as I can; doing all I can to reflect his qualities. I believe that's what he expects of us. I no longer see how joining ANY specific organization on earth can bring me more into God's loving-kindness. It's GOD'S loving kindness - not any organizations. It goes back to what you said...
"Remember... it's between you and Jehovah God."
I sincerely hope that one day you realize that Jehovah loves people... not organizations.