Great question NVRGNK,
And some equally great replies. Most were obviously very sincere.
From my perspective I would like to make this comment.
I was a believer. A real believer.
I believed it all. Deep down. All the time. I prayed to Jehovah like I would talk to my best friend. I believed he was listening.... no I KNEW he was listening. We were tight.
Then I had my awakening.
Now I find myself questioning everything. Evaluating everything.
Since the big awakening occured, I have found the need to take a step back. To cleanse my mind and soul of all the beliefs that I obtained from an organization that was built on lies and foolishness, and start anew.
I consider myself a spiritual person, yet my intellect is telling me that there is a possibility that God does not exist. That the bible is a collection of writings that is not inspired by any superhuman force. This makes me sad. I want to believe. Yet I do not want to believe in something that is not real. I want reality. I want to believe in things that our real. I want to be a good person. I want to do the right things.
I have no answer yet.
I am in evaluation mode.
No prejudice.
No pre-conceived ideas that can never be challenged. No beliefs to get defensive about.
If I ever figure it out, I'll let you know.
The Oracle.