OK, so let me get this straight... If I had a shitty childhood as a witness (and trust me, I did), I should then spend the rest of my free life going around feeling sad in order to rub my sadness in my parent's face.. This will somehow "prove" to them that they hurt me.
I'm sorry, I choose not to that. I choose to be happy and welcome each and every day with open arms.
You and you alone have the power to make yourself happy or miserable. This is a fact. You can allow external factors to color your mood or not. Our feelings come from our thoughts. Happy thoughts=happy feelings. It really is that simple.
You have no control over what other people do, you do have control over how you feel.
You might want to check out this book: Feeling Good by Dr. David Burns.
You CAN be happy. Make the choice.
I am not picking at you, seriously, but that is pretty simplified.
I wish it were all that simple.
And I do for the most part think positively most of the time.
BUT (you had to know that was coming )
Thinking happy thoughts is not going to take the cancer away from my Mother. It's not going to take away my Father's ahlzeimer's disease.
It doesn't take away the financial strain on me that they didn't save anything for their retirement because "this old world" was going to end soon.
And a lot of other problems that I am not going to bother to list.
Wallowing in the misery isn't the answer, but just "putting on a happy face," isn't feasable in some situations.
I have been pretty pissed off the last year. But it's mostly because I've let myself be that way. I won't be this way forever, but right now I am.
When I was a dub everything was about suppressing your emotions and putting on that fake witnoid smile.
Sorry for the semi-rant.
