Thank you IIbd, that means a lot to me.
True bizzybee, since we no longer get literature
BFD, yeah i feel a little kicked by you, but more like you just jumped on the bandwagon with everyone else...yeah my story is weird, so i came here to share it,,,you know it is funny you ask if i still consider myself one of Jehovah's Witnesses, yes, of course, I have not been informed otherwise,,, but i am beginning to think maybe the elders are not Jehovah's Witnesses. I know Jehovah's word the Bible and His Holy Spirit will guide me, it always has,, i am just very afraid of where I am going from here,, hey I was the same way when I came in the truth,, took me years, I was so afraid,,, i finally built up and am a good little JW (there is that phraseology again) and now, I may have to do something else,,scary