Deep hatred for something often leads to irrational behavior, and unwillingness to consider alternative viewpoints.
Those of us who were JWs obviously HAVE considered alternative viewpoints
About 2 years ago I started an active search for “God”, only to be very disappointed in what I found out there, and have been disillusioned with certain realizations I had about the subject matter altogether.
Where was the "out there" where you looked for God?
I’ve since been looking all over for information, and truthfully have been considering going back to being a JW (though have not acted upon it) based on not finding anything better out there.
Once again with the "out there" - as though the WT organization and "out there" are the only two possibilities. Have you considered that your relationship with God, like your relationship with anyone else is not so much about gaining information as it is about experiencing that person? There is a huge difference between knowing ABOUT God (or anyone else) and KNOWING them.
My wife is now pregnant, and this has hastened my desire to settle upon something. My visit to this site was based upon my deep inner desire to find a “smoking gun” on why I shouldn’t be a JW – yet most of what I have read so far seems to be rantings of an extreme position.
If your relationship with God is based on whether or not you are a JW or any other denomination, then your relationship is not with God, but with the organization. Rather than looking for some organization to "fix you up" with God, why not build your relationship with God, through Christ, and then let Him point you the body of believers He wants you to fellowship with?