michelle, my dear girl :
what is going on with you right now? with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap? And when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help? jah tells us we can never be tested beyond what we can bare, but hew will either give us the strength or make a way out for us.he knew if you relied on him and asked for help from me you would have succeeded with flying colours, and you have felt good about yourself and had a clean conscience.
your mom told me just a bit of what was going on with you and i am sick to my stomach and shocked. my dear little sister cant be acting like this. so at the sunday meeting i was basically crying through most of it because i couldnt get my mind off of you ( the watch tower study is perfect for you, but too close to home to study in front of people ) so i worte this down to calm myself down. to know discpline.. to recieve disicpline that gives insight , and listen to discipline of your father and the law of your mother. jehocvah is going to discipline you because he lvoes you and he wants to shake some sense into that totally lost head of yours. but he also needs to protect the rest of the congrgation including your sister from your atrocious conduct. I know you say i love jehovah ( sidebar... never said once while talking to her... * my but*) and his organization. but your conduct, actions and attitudes you are in reality acting like eve choosing for yourselfd what you want to do, by doing what jehovah tells us is wrong.
he only wants what is best for you. he wants you to be happy. he is actually begging you to pay attention to my commandments. please, please listen. i love way so much and so does jehovah. you dont know or see the pain that you are causing everyone it would have been easier if you had just died. i beg of you to seriously rthink prayrfully of what you are doing. the end is so close and i want you to be with me in the new system.
I know that you dont want to hear all of this but i wouldnt be a true friend if i didnt. i know what is right and wrong. and what you are doing is very very wrong. please, before it is too late, humble yourself. admit you have made mistakes and give jehhovah the most important place in your heart. you cant slave for two masters. , you have an intense love for the world and it has sucked you dry. what happened to that intelligent girl i know. because now all i can see is pure stupidity. please just learn to hate this world. because it hates you and is going to kill you.
satans world is like a beautiful balloon. it looks so nice but after a little time the outer fascade weakens and bursts and all that is left over is garbage and inside the balloon is poisonous air that will end up killing you. so i beg of you to be like the prodegal son and come back with all your heart to serve jehovah before it is too late. i will be here waiting for your return...
your big sister, corina oxoxoxoxo
ok now to point out everything that is extremely wrong with her letter. where do i possibly start?
first of all. she mentioned how i am being sucked into a similar trap as what happened to me last year.. lets clairify..i was assaulted by an ex boyfriend. so the present situation of having a boyfriend now.. which is an awesome relationship. somehow compares to something that hurt me enough to send me into a downward spiral of depression.. somehow leaving the supposed "truth" to have a life i enjoy is comparable.
the next thing that really bugs me is how i am " lost" and " no longer intelligent" because i have decided to leave a religion. how can there be a lack of intelligence on my part when i am deciding to think for myself. That i dont need a " god" or a bunch of old men i brooklynn to tell me what i should think, feel, want and desire. NO, true wisdom and intelligence is having the mental capacity to make decisions for yourself. to realize what is wrong in your life and change your path to the better. which is what i have done. i have allieviated myself of such mind control.
most of this is obviously bul-- but the other thing i am going to comment on is how the world is a poisonous balloon that is going to kill me. wow... can we be anymore dramatic.. unless you are talking about pollution and poor air quality and chemicals of some sort i suggest you elave such opinioins to yourself. how would said "world" kill me. am i not living in the same world of oppertunity and circumstance regardless of my religious beliefs? the only difference is that now i am decideing how to live my life.I am ablew to do the normal things everyone does with a clear conscience. so the world, in which i am reviling, is some how going to kill me. if this is true than so be it. I would rather die knowing i have freedom of thought and pertson than knowing i have been overtaken and devoured, so to speak, in a mind contol cult.
