Thank you messenger for this insight information! I must applaud you for remaining with this group of adherents who truly think that they are the centerpiece of enlightenment guided by the Borg.
I remember the times going to the elder schools how they made me feel overly responsible for the flock and by being inculcated what a privilege it is to be an elder. More than that, after each school I felt elated, a little puffed up with pride but at the same time I was scared as I realized deep down that I could not live up to all the requirements the Borg imposed on me as an elder anyhow. As elders we had to be strong and always be ready to give help and counsel in the congregation and yet I myself needed reassurance and a lifting up as well. I wished I could have gone to any reliable witness at that time and pour my heart out and confess how utterly unhappy I really was.
I felt at the time I could not even go to my wife, as I was afraid that she too would find me weak and unworthy as an elder - otherwise she might have decided to "report" my skepticism to other elders or so I thought. Little did I know that she also fostered many doubts and was suspicious of some of their teachings. Those were the days of my "cocoon" existence from which I finally freed myself.
Nevertheless I do appreciate your feedback in order for us to continue to receive sensitive reports from the Borg at elder schools and other intimate meetings and see for ourselves how the congregations are being manipulated by the WT for their own "protection" from would-be apostates.
Fortunately for us today, we can now see forever as the day continues to be clear.....
:*) Richie