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Welcome. I will add my thoughts. I was not raised in this religion, but was a Bible study. I have been a baptised witness since 1973 and not disfellowshipped.
NOW is the time to do research, as was mentioned. Yes, please ask questions.
I did find it odd, after being baptised several years, that the Witnesses discourage you from going far back into their history. If you have the CD rom, you will not find references dating way back, although there is archival storage for all the information to be on the disk.
But the bits and pieces that I did hear or read about from time to time were interesting. Russell taught that God lived in the Pliades star system. That the pyramids were "God's witnesses in stone." The measurement of the steps in one of the pyramids led him to the 1914 date. Your study conductor may not know about this, and probably will not want to know.
Later, WT president Rutherford taught that the "ancient worthies" such as David and Abraham, would be resurrected in 1925 and even had a mansion in Southern California deeded to them. He also had two 16 cylinder cadillacs that I suppose they could have driven, and I doubt your study conductor knows about this, either.
Aside from the research, there is another important factor for you to contemplate. We are all imperfect, and should you ever commit an infraction of the rules, you may have to face a group of men that may look upon you with humiliating disdain, ask intensely personal questions, and if they assess you as not repentent,(or even if they do, just needing punishment) deem you worthless in God's eyes. Yes, if you are baptised, you give them this power over you.
Please, slow down. They will tell you that time is of the utmost, that the end will come any day. Well, they have been saying that for years and years, yet they themselves are planning new building projects at this moment. I think you have some time. It is yours. Please take it.