How did things go?
First time posting..HELLO!
by kl2009 48 Replies latest members private
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kl2009
So, here is my update from the weekend..I did go to the service. I knew pretty much everybody there and was overwhelmingly showered with affection and love. Everyone was wonderful. It was very emotional. I think it would've almost been easier if they had been cold to me, but it was completely the opposite. I heard a lot of "i miss you so much".."i am so glad you are here:.."it's sooo good to see you"..etc.. I don't really know how to feel. I did a lot of crying this week. I still am very emotional about the whole thing. I never went to the elders with my side of the story about what happened to me and because of that, felt they had no choice but to df me. I believe that if I would have said something, I would not have been df'd, however, I just couldn't bring myself to talk with them. So, what now? Do I go and talk to them to get it off my chest? I don't expect it will change anything, but it might make me feel better. I am afraid if I do that, they will want to rehash everything with the other person(s) involved and I don't want that. Or, do I just resign myself to this being the way it is and try and put it behind me? Hmmm Thanks for your support, you guys..It means a whole lot to me.
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straightshooter
Welcome, glad you joined the group.
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isaacaustin
KL2009, what are your feelings toward the org and its claim to be God's channel of truth?
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kl2009
Um..okay...Well, I don't really understand the responses.. But, to answer the last question..I don't believe at all that it is the "truth", in fact, I don't even like to use that term. I have done so much soul-searching, reading, praying..IThere is no way, with as much as I have learned and continue to learn, that I could ever go back to that. I believe in God. I don't believe the Watchtower Society is right. I know this with every fiber of my being, however, I don't believe that all the people in "the Organization" are bad. I believe that there are some that are very sincere, however misguided they might be. They believe with everything in their core that they are right. I believe just as strongly that they are wrong. It is very frustrating. And by the way..I like the emoticons/smiley facs..They are cute and I am a girl. As adolescent as it may be, I like to use them. ;P
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isaacaustin
Ok, KL...thanks for sharing. You are on the right path. Feel free to PM me on any topics or issues you would like to talk about...doctrinally or otherwise. I very much enjoy Bible discussions...or we can talk here. I know this shunning is hard on you. You have come to a good place where others can empathize with you. Relax...enjoy...open up as you are comfortable.
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kl2009
The blood issue infuriates me. I am an organ donor. The whole "light" issue is ridiculous to me. As far as the UN..When I first learned about that a few years ago, I read everything I could about it and even called the UN library. I called my step-father, who is an elder, and confronted him with the info and he did not have any answers for me. I had read "Crisis of Conscience" right around the same time and I think those things combined was a huge turning point. I let go of the guilt I had been carrying for so long because I began to realize just how wrong the "society" was. I don't want to be a part of it, but I always struggle with missing the ones I love.
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isaacaustin
You are not alone here KL. I have not been thru what you have (being never bapt) but many here will be able to relate and help you.
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Satanus
' I am an organ donor.'
Which organs have you donated, so far?
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jookbeard
doner card?