Would God really have manouvered such a long-winded lesson involving so many people just so I can learn from the experience and help others?
Maybe, maybe not. You can ask Him one day or even better ask now. You might not get the answer you want but if you keep on asking questions you will get some profound answers, I guarantee!
Somehow it just doens't sit right that God would do that especially as the whole experience has turned my hubby and kids completely away from religion. They won't touch it with a bargepole.
Hey that's cool. Religion is dead but God is alive and well!
Religion is dead rites, legalism and the traditions of men. God seeks a loving intimate relationship with His kids, not with an organisation.
So I'm now thinking, if the coincidence option is the right one, why didn't God answer my prayer at all? If He wasn't involved in the fateful knock on the door, why not? After all, I had prayed for help and support, I was already a christian and had faith and I needed Him right then. Why didn't God answer me?
My advice is this, carry on praying, read your bible and listen out for His "voice". It almost certainly won't be audible but you will hear from Him.
I guess I'm really having trouble with my faith until I can get some straight answers. As Alltimejeff aptly said recently on another thread, " God better start showing up!".
He will, hang in there! Stick with the Alpha course, don't worry if they can't answer all your questions or even if God doesn't answer some of them. I do not answer all my kids questions and if I did that wouldn't help sometimes. Other times I do but it isn't always the answer they were expecting, sometimes it is better that they imagined, sometimes they are not so impressed but other times they knew the answer before they asked.
Here's a verse that comes to mind
Ecclesiastes 3:11 (New International Version)
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
All the best,
Stephen