LeavingWT - It is circular. I don't think there is any way around that, at least not for me.
I learned about God through instruction as a child, at some Sunday school lessons - my mother was not religious, and certainly not outspoken about faith. I do not ever remember having a conversation about it with her as a child.
My brother had the same upbringing as me; the same minimal exposure. He's an atheist/agnostic. I'm a believer.
*shrugs*
From that bit of instruction, I always believed. I got strength from it. Had prayers answered as a teenager. That's pretty powerful to a young person.
I fell away from it all as I moved into my twenties. Then a few years ago (once I started thinking about my children's spiritual needs), I decided to read the bible myself, to make sure no one could tell me something was a command when it actually wasn't. So no one could swindle me, and so I could teach my children correctly.
Then the JW's offered to conduct a completely unbiased study with me, and I accepted.
After two years, I got away from them too. Started searching for truth elsewhere - and then just stopped searching altogether. Just decided to take a breather... and then I put my faith and fate in God's hands.
Here I am.
I've never lost my faith. When I have doubts, I think about Jesus and his teachings, and the doubts fade away.
Believe me, I question everything in my life. I read all fine print. I never believe anyone when they say something that is too good to be true. I never believe anything anyone says anyway, without looking it up for myself.
But I don't doubt God. My faith is always there.
I think I consider that a miracle in itself. I think that's my personal revelation. I don't have anything like what PSac says happened to him. I don't have the contact that Shelby says she has.
I just have my undying faith.
I don't expect that to convince anyone. But that's as honest as I think I can be.
Tammy