Some of you know I have struggled with this for awhile. I really do believe in marriage and the committment, however, sometimes enough is enough.
His endless preaching at me and calling me and my (adult) children satan has me realizing that this situation is not going to get better. The other day he kicked my son out of the house for wearing a cap, in his car, with a skull on it. He said my son was bringing satan in the house and told him to get out. He's been ranting endlessly about how close the end is, look at the eggs have to be recalled, bed bugs are an epidemic, etc, etc. Its gotten so bad, that I don't think they make enough xanax pills for me to pop to try to handle him.
I already got my own phone last month because I saw this coming. I found a new job and tomorrow I sign a lease for an apartment. He won't get the help he needs because his jw friends are telling him how great he is for standing up to us for jehovah. I can't compete with his perception of God. He's already excited about being able to have his jw friends over finally.
I must admit, I will be happy about not having to walk on eggshells around him anymore, and be able to put up a christmas tree if I want to. But it still hurts to think 25yrs of marriage is essentually going down the drain. Im almost 43, I've NEVER lived on my own before. Its scary. I'll be ok.
Thanks for listening.