Greetings, dear Estee... and peace to you!
I am glad that dancing brings you joy. It does me, as well, when I can get around to it!
But, again, as some have lovingly pointed out, I think you have entirely missed the point of my post, unfortunately, and I am not sure I can further explain/clarify it for you. But, first, no, you should NOT go back... and I didn't offer any "shoulds" at all to anyone... regarding going back or any other matter. I asked the question that, if summarized, might be, "if being OUT makes one's life NO different than being IN (i.e., miserable, angry, bitter)... then why tell ones THEY 'should' come out?" I addressed to those who, although out, apparently have found no joy in being out, at least as far as they present here.
Also, you are in error, unfortunately, as to the "fundamentalness" of my "christianity." Truly.
And no, this particular thread is not a "testimony" of any sort. My life would be that, 24/7. The thread, however, was, again, merely meant to be an inquiry to those who can't seem to shake the "baggage" of anger, bitterness... even deceit (which, while I can understand the first to, to some degree, I truly cannot understand that third one...)
As to your question of what brings ME pleasure and joy, I would say a whole myriad of things, but let's just start with life... and freedom... as a son of God. The first is pretty self-explanatory: I am alive, and that is a reason to rejoice, at least for me. As to the second... it is not "freedom" as in I am not imprisoned or physical bound in some way, but that I am mentally, emotionally, psychologically, and SPIRITUALLY free (while waiting to be physically free)... the greatest of which is that I am free to love... forgive... and receive love and forgiveness from... whomever I wish... and whoever offers either. Regardless of what THEY believe. How's that?
I bid you peace, dear Estee!
A slave of Christ,
SA