If someone says they are an atheist to me that means they probably thought about the existence of God and
after weighing the evidence have decided there is no God.
To me that is to much like when I was a JW, from birth, there was a time I had weighed the evidence
and decided the JW's were right.
I learned how wrong I can be weighing evidence in matters of faith, God and our existence.
That leaves me to be an agnostic, I can say I dont know, I'm good with that.
I do find comfort reading parts of the bible, saying the lords prayer, saying the serenity prayer.
There are a lot of posibilities, to me it seems very possible scientifically speaking, when it comes to particles molecules and
quantum physics that if you make your mind up that there is no God, you may be sending yourself to an eternity
of darkness, which some have described as hell.
To me it makes more sense if your going to bullshit yourself. Bullshit yourself that there is a loving God who will
take care of all your needs and wants throughout eternity. The bible says a lot of things. I try to keep the good
things it says and dwell and reflect on them. The bible says God doesnt want your sacrafice. God wants you to have
faith in him. The bible also says we are saved by faith.
Faith you cant weigh, quantify or qualify.
I think I have an open mind because I dont want some group or person with a mindset like the Jehovahs witnesses
to do another number on me.
I read Dawkins, DArwin, Sam Harris and the atheist here on JWD. But I also read my bible and at the end of the day delude myself
with faith and give thanks to my God.
A second point for someone like me 58 years old who did not consider the posibility of there being no God until
I was 50, Atheism is a very depressing consideration, probably because the way I wired myself for 50 years reading
the bible. My life is my own experiment but this year I have read Dawkins greatest show on earth and other atheistic
evolutionary books and now I am on anti depressants.
I know the way for me to get off them is to read my bible and not read about atheism or evolution.
So for me to think bad thoughts, there is no God, the bible is not true causes me to be medicated.
And I have gone through this before my cure to get off the medication is to read the bible and believe in God.
Thats my experiece, thats my cross to bear, each man has to work out his own salvation.
So really being agnostic is detrimental to my health, I need to move on over to the believer category based on
my own empirical evidence.