While an earlier version was made available privately the time has come to 'progress'.
Conscious Class and Ex both strongly adhere to not keeping things 'hidden' in regards to WTS publications, talks and documents which are circulated in order to maintain it's position.
Another wonderful poster (who has yet to give me permission to name) has 'reduced' and 'bookmarked' the first full copy link I was given by our 'winner'.
In this newest and final 'clean' copy link you find two other additions besides the reduction/bookmarking..... the Brother who uploaded the entire book wishes all to have a copy that includes both BOE LTRs (pre-KS LTR and Spiral Binding LTR)
Also another development has occurred.... the Brother responsible for this book being brought into light and put forth for public consumption and discussion has requested I post this letter explaining to 'us' (JWN posters/global audience) and 'them' (WTS of Penn & NY).
I ask you give attention to his words/ experiences as he is representative of a newly emerging demographic within the Conscious Class
So without further ado I give you his link and the 'stage' if you will to 'Brother Johnson'......
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Brother Johnson:
I am a long time servant of Jehovah, babtized in late teens. Being a spiritualy minded young man I applied to Bethel and was accepted. I served faithfully for 20 years in a variety of assignenments and meet many wonderfull people and had, what I thought, was the privilidge of supporting Christs Brothers. I developed a health problem that precluded me from carrying out my work assignments and left me physically weak. My condition persisted and it was timetly recomended that I leave Bethel Service. I understood and was grateful for my time there. I was kindly taken by friends and over the course of several years recovered my health.
My situation though was difficult. I was in my late 40's and had no real world experience in the work force, no training to speak of, but I trusted in Jehovah. As my health improved I strongly desired to support myself as I felt I had already been a burden on the couple who had taken me in. I found employment as a janitor with a local brother. The physical work was tirering, given my condition, but satisfying. Over the course of the next ten years I regained much of my strength and continued to devote myself to serving Kingdom Interests. I was ultimatly able to serve as an Elder, a privledge I have enjoyed for almost 30 years. Despite the difficulties of old age and infirmities brought on by a life of physical labor I told myself it was all for Jehovahs Glory! But much has changed....
In the last few years I have begun to question much. In 1935 when I was born it was thought the end was imminent*. My parents believed I would never go to school in this System of Things. I reached out for organizational goals. Both of my parents died in this System, faithful to what they believed was the Jehovah God's Organization. I served twenty years at head quarters under the same ideal. Now I too have grown old, and have begun to doubt how near the end really is. Recent adjustments to our understanding of Jesus prophcey of 'this generation' ** have convinced me that my parents served, not Christ, but men and that I too have been deceived. It stretches the bounds of reason that Jesus was speaking of "overlapping" groups of anointed followers of Christ. Further, from my own experiences and personal interactions with former Presidents of the WTS I know they held no such understanding.
However the final blow, and what has prompted me into action, was the Annual Meeting this year. I was invited to attend, as I frequently have had the privledge to do so. In one of the talks it was put forth, those who have grown old in this system and begun to question the wisdom of Kingdom sService and forgoing secular jobs and opportunties were compared to the Isrealites who murmured in the wilderness.. Tears of bitterness welled up in my eyes at that! A life spent in whole souled service compared to those who were punished by Jehovah God for unfaithfulness! How dare they devalue the sacrifice of so many, including my parents, and so many dear friends who sacrificed the chance to have children or as in my case to even marry, all for the Kingdom..... Even now I struggle to maintain my composure. A life of sacrifice and denial reduced to regret and bitterness...
My nephew tells me that many former brothers and sisters long ago came to understand what I have only learned too late and are working to help others. He indicated that it may be useful to you and other to have copy of the new Kingdom Ministry School textbook. I am glad to provide mine to you. I can only hope the information will help others to avoid wasting their life in Service to unappreciative men rather the loving Jehovah God I still believe exsists and cares!
Thank you for taking the time to listen the incoherent ramblings of an old man. I trust you will do your utmost to make sure it is shared with all.
Your Brother in Christ
Yknot's notations
* Being born in 1935 he grew up in a time that told him and his parents that Armageddon by 1941 was but mere 'months away' (Watchtower, September 15, 1941, p. 288) -- for older Watchtower publications reference checks or learning opportunities please consider http://www.archive.org/details/WatchTowerBibleandTractSocietyofPennsylvaniaWatchTowerpubs_0 and JWN's Poster Chasson absolutely delicious collection of Pre-Awake magazines.... http://www.wtarchive.org/deposit/ )
** : The 'Jesus meant overlapping generation" 1st debuted by Bro. Barr 2009 AGM, published in April 15, 2010 WT article entitled ""Holy Spirit's Role in the Outworking of Jehovah's Purpose"" para 13-14.
While I have pleaded Bro. Johnson to become an active member, he has steadfastly declined citing his desire to reachout to his peers and the younger Friends as he continues serving as a Elder within his circuit. He feels he is too long in the tooth to leave and discerns the weight of his words in giving counsel, admonishment and encouragement to those asleep.
God Bless you Bro. Johnson and to all like you waking up late in life, we love you, we are here for you when you are ready!
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Thank you all for giving our ks10-e benefactor your time! He wishes me to extend his warm wishes, love and gratitude to all! I of course on our behalf also return said sentiments!
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