I had a hard time with many of the doctrines, especially the ones created from passages that were clearly symbolic, but that they insisted were literal. The scientist within me keep fighting it, but the JWs had the one I loved in their clutches and I felt I could not tell it like it was without loosing her.
One of the projects I worked on at NASA was the Cosmic Background Explorer (COBE). A project and satellite which for the first time 100% validated the Big Bang Theory as true and correct, but I could not say anything as they ridiculed the Big Bang at the meetings, as they belittled science fact as if it were science fiction with their sanctimonious and ignorant drivel.
I held it in for 10 years and then I just had to get off the merry-go-round. When I got off the merry-go-round, it was not good, I was not kind or tactful, I had enough and I opened up with both barrels blazing; a big mistake.
We are still together, but things have never been and will never be the same since I told her that I just can’t live the lie anymore.
Freeman