I would like to ask a question if I might: How do ones here view spirits? (Not the alcoholic kind) I have left the Org. now for at least 5 years, although I did go to the memorial last year, but not where I used to go to the hall; I was not DF or DA.
All my life since I can remember I have had contact with entities, spirits, call them what you will. They used to show me pleasant visions when I was very small; this was before my mother became a JW. Later when she started studying with JWs, I started getting traumatic experiences—powerful and strange spirits who used to chant some weird stuff in my head and show me visions of time and space on various levels of infinity (bear with me on this stuff, I’m not crazy). I can’t blame any WT teaching for these experiences as she never used to take me to the meetings much and never spoke of spirits at all, and I never did either.
As I got older the experiences dwindled to virtually zero. But once I was around 15 they started back, but not the same, weird dreams at first, and then powerful presences, and energies. I’m sure reflecting back on them and what I feel now, these are real and powerful entities. There was nothing imaginary about them, or weak and intangible that could just be construct of a programmed mind. I started studying all the Watchtower literature, and started getting all the usual “demon” indoctrination put into my mind. “They are all deranged monsters [the spirits]” and the usual paranoia and society scare mongering. Unfortunately I fell for it, and I feel now in retrospect I either slandered some good spirits, or they just gave up on me, and let the evil ones come because that is what I expected, and was told to expect.
I did have some “attacks” by some kind of parasite entity, but they weren’t that strong and it wasn’t that traumatic when over. (Usually in the early morning or at night) Later I ended up getting baptised, and still felt entities but always [because of the WTS’ evil motive for them] felt they must be bad.
When I moved away from family, I drifted more and more away from the meetings, basically because my conscience was torturing me on so many of the WTS’ teachings. I wrote to them about spirits and they replied with the most pathetic letter you can imagine, with an inept illustration regarding Jesus that didn’t apply one bit to anyone but Jesus. I wrote on other issues as I had found some false teachings in the Revelation book and needed to know where in the Bible it taught this, as I couldn’t find it in mine anywhere. They gave one pathetic evasive reply, which was so evasive you would have thought they sent it on April 1st as a Joke; they ignored all my other letters. I then for the first time went to a meeting [the first on 6 months or more] and got approached by two elders and was given the third degree as the WTS has written to them about my letters [private letters], and must have basically said, “sort this questioner out, why the hell is he writing to us”—I never went back after that disgusting treatment. Anyway—to cut a long story short—I have come to the realisation that God is not with the Watchtower society, and I’m half way through ‘Crisis of Conscience’, after seeing many, many exposé web sites.
Back to my question, I am now getting entities more and more, and other strange stuff, not evil, or even frightening, just strange, and obviously gaining in power. How do any of you who have had these experiences [and I’m 101% sure they are not some psychological trauma/stress phenomenon, but real entities], how do you deal with that, and what category do you put them in, with regard to the knowledge that God is not with the Watchtower society? I would like to know of others experiences if any have had some, and educated opinions on the subject also.
Thanks in advance,