I don't hate God, at all, dear ST (peace to you!). To the contrary, I love Him very much. I won't go into the "why" of it, though, in thread - there are plenty comments from me on that topic throughout the forum. But I will say (1) He absolutely gives a sh*t about me; my own life has PROVEN that to me (and since I'm the only one that it needs to be proven TO I'm not too concerned with whether you believe that or not...); and (2) I won't/don't apologize for anything He does/does not do. He doesn't need me... or anyone else... to do that.
Some (including myself) might try to EXPLAIN to you some of things that are... well, I won't say "hard for you to understand,"... but rather, that aren't often even touched on by others and so you may be unaware of them, yes. But that's only because we love HIM (and His Son)... and want you to know the truth about HIM (and His, the former as shown to us by means of and THROUGH that Son).
To the extent you are truly interested and want to know, that is, of course. If you just want to debate what you "don't" believe versus what I "do" believe... I will have to pass. Again, plenty of threads/posts on this board setting forth MY position on that. In fact, some of us just went into that, so no need to waste board space rehashing it again this soon, IMHO.
But, again, peace to you... and thank you for giving me this opportunity to share the truth: that I do NOT hate God, no by any stretch.
A slave of Christ,
SA, who doesn't believe the term "God apologist" applies to her... and so hopes you won't lump her in with those you believe to be such... in the manner of those here to tend to lump her in with other such labelled ones, such as "religionists" and "christians" (as they know the latter)... as doing so would be (1) judgmental and (2) quite inaccurate...