My word, the more i hear the more worried i get.
I am still struggling with my depression and guess im looking for a loving "family" to help me through. The otherthing is - please dont think im silly - i am terrified of dying. I guess tgat was a major pull towards the jws. The promise of surviving in a world of never ending happiness.
I must admit i dont know much sbout the bible, i know about adam, eve garden of eden etc, jesus dying and being reserected but what i dont know is how to talk to god, how to pray and thank him for all the good in my life, i dont know how to say grace all things i want to do.
I really am messed up and all alone. I have always loved the prayer "footprints in the sand" and have always liked to believe its true, but now it seems just when i need god the most hes left me. Just like the prayer.
I dont want to offend anyone and i hope i havent x