Not sure how to approach this but here goes.....My wife discovered a porn site on the computer tonight. Yes, I was going to them, and I was foolish to think I could never get caught. I have been visiting them for some years, not a daily problems, but occasionaly every month or so - still a problem wethere its once or a hundred times. Yes, even while I was an elder (hence I would find a way to avoid both talks on the matter and dealing with anyone as an elder). Yes I am a huge Hypocrite - with a capital "H".
My daughter is in her mid thirties, I know she will be devastated when she finds out - she always thought that while we were JW's that I tried to be different - really I am no different and so face the consequences.
So needless to say I have a huge hole to dig myself out of. My wife is really, really angry saying she could handle adultery better and wants me out of the house and her life. We have been married for almost 40 years, I don t want to give up on that but know I have horribly let her down in the biggest way possible - betrayal, lies and loss of trust. So I am turing to my only friends I have and ask is there anyone that has been in the same boat and what worked or did not work in the early days to rebuild the trust? To the dear women we have on this site - what did you do when you found out your hubby or boyfriend was looking at porn?
If there is a great possibility I am facing the rest of my life without my family - be honest with me. I need it, but I need them even if I have been a complete selfish pr%&k.