Flower: (((Big Hug)))
But I realized after getting through another one of those weeks from hell that it makes no difference how much I pray or how much I believe. Nothing in my life changes one way or the other based on my religious or spiritual activity. Whatever happens, good or bad, is going to happen whether or not I pray or 'trust in God' or try to live a Christian life. So really, what is the point?
The point is flower you are not supposed to have a relationship with God for purely selfish reasons—isn’t that what Satan charged Job with? “Let some shit happen and Job will curse you to your face.” (Paraphrased) What do you gain if you curse God and reject him? He wants you to learn to cope with life and gain in wisdom. He will not fix it all now, as much of what we experience is there to learn from: “True, no discipline seems for the present to be joyous, but grievous; yet afterward to those who have been trained by it, it yields peaceable fruit, namely, righteousness.” (Hebrews 12:11) Life on earth now is a massive learning curve, leaving God when you need him won’t make life any easier, or remove the problems—problems are there to make you wiser, and more empathic to other’s suffering also.
It’s a cheesy saying—but if it doesn’t kill you, it will only make you stronger—eventually!
I was watching a programme today on the History channel about the Roman Gladiators, and Emperors. Part of it was all about the sickening evil they did to the Christians in the Coliseum, how they were mauled to death by wild animals, and tortured, burned alive, and mutilated. It was truly awful! I am so glad I wasn’t alive then, or in their shoes—I really did count my blessings. I have a roof over my head, my health, and food on the table, reasonable security—freedom, and the sun on my face!
Flower: Life is about growing and going to higher levels, you are just experiencing a new level, don’t let the pain deceive you. You will become stronger, and God will guide to you a stronger more self sufficient level—don’t give up before you have got there! Ask him for wisdom and insight—ask for endurance and inner peace, don’t give up, life will change, and the cycle will turn.