suspicious - I still believe in God and the bible but it's quite complex how my understanding of the bible is evolving.
I'll answer one of your questions, the one about miracles and in your face supernatural events...
We are still living in the time of the gentiles. When that time began, gentiles, nations, etc, it's a period of time where God appears to be hands off / behind the scenes. Miracles and such are very personal, etc. The time of the gentiles are when man/nations rule.
When the time of the gentiles ends, that's when things really get moving.
Romans 11:25 "I do not want you to be ignorant of this sacred SECRET.....that a dulling of sensibilities has happened in part to Israel until the full number of people of the nations has come in".
Luke 21:20,24 "When you see Jerusalem surrounded by encamped armies, then know that the desolating of her has drawn near......and Jerusalem will be tramped on by the nations, until the appointed times of the nations are fulfilled."
JW's taught that the end of the gentile times was in 1914, which would have meant that all annointed/chosen/etc had been selected. The end would have come shortly after if that was the case.