I consider this more of a spiritual awakening.
When my J.W. grandfather died, I inherited my grandmothers huge, old King James Version bible. They were Lutherin before they became J.W.s. I was actually surprised that they held on to it since witnesses are discouraged from reading other translations. I always remember being intrigued by its beautiful artwork. When I was a young, I would wait until everyone was sleeping and I would lift it off the stand, dust it off and look through those dramatic, sometimes downright eerie pictures. My sister knew this and suggested that I be the one to have it when our family was taking care of the estate.
One day I was having a really hard time dealing with my grandfathers death and I was questioning many of the W.T.S teachings. For the first time in my life, I actually knelt down and prayed to "God" to please let me know the truth. I didnt care what it was, I just had to know. Something made me walk over to the closet and pull out that bible. Maybe I just wanted to reminisce, who knows. I had forgotten how heavy it was as I dusted it off and started looking through the pictures. I flipped to the back and noticed the huge concordance. I didnt even know this existed since as a witness, I only used watchtowers and J.W. books as references to the bible. It never occured to me that I could have just flipped to the back and looked up any topic in the index.
I looked up "Heaven", "Condition of the dead", "Angels" etc.
I started noticing differences between the KJV and the NWT in key scriptures, only slight differences but enough to change the entire understanding.
I couldnt believe it!
I had to know more.
I started comparing any bible I could get my hands on.
There were times when I had three or four bibles in front of me. My husband must have thought I was losing my mind.
I believe that to be my very first spiritual experience.
throughout my entire witness life I had never felt as spiritually enlightened.
I believe there is a reason I have this bible.
I trust it before any other.