Looking Back, Are You Embarrassed By Your Attitudes, Speech, Actions as a JW? (page 2)

ctrwtf

Yes Absolutely. Thankfully I'm a different person now. Sometimes i'm haunted though by the memory of people that I dissed. What a f*&ckin tool I was!

I'd like to think a was one of the "good JWs" for the bulk of my association with them. I was on a high-horse for the first year or so, though. I was a teenager then and I relished the opportunity to argue points of doctrine with religious householders.

In hindsight, it was in extremely poor form. A 16 year old kid arguing with grown men and women about things I had very little knowledge of. Ignorance was bliss, however.

FirstLastName

I was so so sure of myself, with a confidence that only a zealous JW can muster. I knew something other did not! I was going to be saved and other were not! I am better than you cause I know "the truth!".

After leaving the JW's, I actually read and understood that the world works much differently. I am embarrassed at my cockiness. I am embarrassed how other must has thought I was so ignorant.

To date, one of my worst fears is to appear "stupid", so I read read read and I love and educated debate. I dont hold strong opinions about things I do not thoroughly understand. If we disagree, thats okay, cause I might have learned something new about the other side of the debate.

jam

The good we learn about being such jerks, we learn to listen

and a little humbleness.

villagegirl

No Birthdays, no Christmas, alienated me from my sister, my brother, tortured my

daughter and made her an outcast as a child, disconnected me from what should have

been bonding celebrations and photos for scrapbooks of life. My parents were not

witnesses, they had sacrificed to give us great Christmases and wonderful holidays,

and my refusal to reciprocate broke their hearts ( they are gone now) My daughter

was a lonely child because of WT stupid rules. I brought a woman, who was my friend,

'into the truth' she is now a mean spirited, self righteuos 'good JW' and treats me with

contempt for 'criticizing the governing body' I turned her into a mental case by bringing

her into this sick, sick, religion.

Band on the Run

I am embarassed that I went door but I was just a kid. There is a school prayer on evolution I would like t rewrite.

MrMonroe

I distanced myself from, and ultimately cut off contact with, people who could have been good friends because they were "wordly" and not "lovers of Jehovah". What a waste.

krejames

Totally! i remember going to a disco (!) with a sister and she ended up snogging some "worldly" guy and i told her to tell her dad about it (who was an elder). Actually i had forgotten about that until I met up with her recently and she reminded me (she's out of WTS now too). The hypocrisy of it (on my part!). Amazingly we stayed very good friends and probably will be for life.

Another time my sister and I went to a house party and there was some heavy(ish) alcohol consumption so we left early. Then the next day we went self-righteously round to their house and sat down in their living room with the hosts and their parents and told them why we left early and why we thought their party was out of order. I'm going red thinking about it!

All i can say in my defence is I was young and niaive. What a prick!

minimus

It's embarrassing to realize, that as a 24 year old "elder", I was counseling families when I had no real experience in life.

BU2B

i am embarrassed at the pure ignorance I spoke and displayed, but don't feel too embarrassed because I was indoctrinated from infancy.. i didn't know any better.

Looking Back, Are You Embarrassed By Your Attitudes, Speech, Actions as a JW?