Pistoff asks
Is there anything left to say?
Perhaps you are at a loss for words at the moment? At any rate, Jehovah is certain to have something to say. "I have kept quiet for a long time. I continued silent. I excercised self-control. Like a woman givin birth I am going to groan, pant, and gasp at the same time." (Isaiah 42:14)
If a "doctrine" as central and fatal as the blood policy is flawed and without merit, then how can we believe anything they say? How do we decide what is right and what is wrong? Hmm.........by our own decisions..
Here's the way it works: If a person abstains from blood based solely upon what the Watchtower has said, they are indeed a mere follower of men. On the other hand, if a Witness has full faith in Jehovah and seeks to obey the injunction to "abstain from blood" because it is the word of Jehovah, then their course has some merit with God.
I wanted to stay in because my family is all there, i am not df'd yet, but damn.
That's the wrong reason. No wonder you were so miserable. The ONLY reason anyone should want to be one of Jehovah's Witnesses is because it is Jehovah's will. Again, anything less than that and you are no different than anyone else who has a religon but not a faith.
HOW in hell did I ever allow myself to be so deceived?
What I have observed is that people are deceived because they want to be deceived. Just like you want to believe everything the apostastes are feeding you because it gives you what your heart wants and you don't have to think too much for yourself. Your screen name in fact betrays you as a person who acts from emotion without rational thought. For Jehovah's Witnesses it is easier to let the Watchtower dictate all aspects of faith rather than deal with such matters on a personal level. The danger there is, of course, that a person's faith in Jehovah may imperceptably erode even though outwardly they are still going through all the motions expected of those having the true faith. The way it is set up to go down is that the severe trials and hardships that are certain to come upon the organization during the oncoming tribulation will winnow out everyone that doesn't have absolute faith in Jehovah God.
Hope that helps / You Know