depression and why JW's don't reconize it

by nogs 44 Replies latest watchtower medical

  • pomegranate
    pomegranate

    Just for Naomi...

    It was just before pomegranate was 10 that his mom and dad began studying with JW's. My folks and older brother ended up getting baptized. We became JW's. I think the younger a person is sucked in to these people, the deeper and more serious the "indoctrination." As it goes for probably everyone, on the surface it seemed the truth, my folks were doing it, so it must be OK. I followed along.

    Things were OK I guess for a couple of years, being now 11 or 12. But things began to change. It seemed even with this "true" religion, it wasn't strong enough to hold my parents together. They seperated and headed for divorce.

    One morning on a school day, my older brother wakes me up in a panic. I looked quickly at my clock and noticed that it was an hour or so later than when my mom would wake me up for school. I knew something was weird...my brother grabbed me and we ran upstairs.

    My mother was lying slumped across her bed, and on her nightstand was some pill bottles, empty. We tried to wake her up, but it didn't help. Of course my dad wasn't around as he was working. So me and my older brother start to pull her out of bed to get her walking and moving around. I'm young at this point, a very small boy in comparison to most, not too strong, and here I am trying to hold my mother up with my brother on the other side walking (more like dragging her around the room) to bring her to. It wasn't working to good. Meanwhile, my younger brother (9 years old) was calling the ambulance.

    The ambulance arrived, and my mom was whisked away to the hospital. She was in there for quite a while with things looking pretty bad. But, she did eventually come around and was released. That whole situation in the beginning of pomegranate's life made him begin to look at his world very different. He was deeply indoctrinated to the JW's, but he sensed something just wasn't right. The deep indoctrination was there (this is the only way), but something in pomegranate's heart broke when that struggle with my mom happened, and the family continued on it's way to complete break down...

    You know, I have never written or talked about my background before. Just reviewing the above, it seems like it's going to be long if I keep writting it. Sheesh, I haven't even left event one yet...

    I'll let it sit at this for now, because I don't want to impose or bore on folks...I don't know, I just have never done this. I almost feel like I'm doing something wrong or maybe not wrong but weak for relating it...Quite odd really.

  • nogs
    nogs

    send me it in a email if you want too
    [email protected]
    Naomi

  • Introspection
    Introspection

    Thank you Naomi and everyone for sharing your story. I too experienced depression when I left, and at one point I went through what you might call a "dark night of the soul". Sad to say, I know of one brother who hung himself. They talked about how he had a plate in his head from the war, but that is just rationalization to make them feel better about the organization. He was fine.

    I think the reason why JWs don't recognize depression, or in some cases recognizes it but denies or rationalize it away by some nonsense like not enough field service hours is frankly because their hearts are closed. It is interesting to note that in the Chinese language, the expression for happiness are the words "open heart". This is why regardless of how many hours you put in service, you cannot reach people if your heart isn't open. I hope you all realize that despite having been hurt by those who are so cold, you are stronger. Those who don't allow themselves to feel anything may be "tough", but those who open up their hearts to what comes and keep going are the truly strong.

  • pomegranate
    pomegranate

    >send me it in a email if you want too

    Will it really be of use/help to you?

    Maybe one of the reasons I don't relate it, is because I'm not
    into "bashing" folks I've grown to become feeling sorry for...
    It really is quite sad isn't it?

    pom

  • thinkers wife
    thinkers wife

    Pom,
    Welcome though belated. And thankyou everyone for bringing this very real problem to the surface.
    A man named Bergman (I think) was a witness and a phsycologist, recognized that there was much depression with the org. He subsequently left because the Society rejected his views and offers to help the members within.
    Very sad.
    TW

  • nogs
    nogs

    EXCUSE ME???

    POM, YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ME???

    i THINK YOU'LL FIND THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. i WANTED YOU TO READ MY THREAD SO YOU CAN SEE HOW HAPPY i REALLY AM ALBEIT WITHOUT RELIGION OF ANY KIND. YOU SEE MY LIFE IS A LIFE NOW, AND i'LL TELL YOU NOW, YOU WOULDN'T BE "BASHING" ANYONE OR EVEN BE HERE IF YOU WERE HAPPY YOURSELF.

  • pomegranate
    pomegranate

    you misunderstood me...I meant feeling sorry for
    the JW's, not you.

    Sorry for the misunderstanding.

  • pomegranate
    pomegranate

    PS Naomi,

    I'm very happy thank you, and still have my God.

    regards.

  • pomegranate
    pomegranate

    >Pom,
    >Welcome though belated

    thinkers wife, thanks for the welcome. Sorry for not responding in
    the above posts....

    depression in the org. is huge, i saw it all the time...
    I feel sorry for them in that regard, and how they are truly
    ensnared by men...it's nearly criminal i think...

  • nogs
    nogs

    I think that depression is an illness which is on the increase all the time and is a subject i am passionate about as it effects everyone once in there lives!!!

    Thinkers wife you have a unique way about you which i like.

    Pom why are you on this site???? What is your purpose in it. My purpose was to lay a few demons to rest which I have done, and i'm ready to go on, tell me what is your purpose??????
    Naomi

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