CRAZY151 DRINKER.....Ouch ! Ouch! Ouch!
I'm not worried about my loved ones dying... the ones that have died are dead! Worrying one way or the other would make 'one h'apeth of difference' as they say here in Lancashire! But what I do experience is HURT! and a great sense of LOSS and an almost overwhelming sense of ANGER..
Yes of course I lay back sometimes and let it all roll over me.... chill out and have a beer... (well a glass of Scotch in my case!) but in my moments of remembering........
There are places I'll remember all my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I loved them all.....
It's when I remember that I miss them - and all the chilling out in the world doesn't take the pain away! It's probably true that God is having fun 'up there' ... but he too knows what it's like to loose someone (albeit temporarily and with the sure hope of seeing him moments later back in heaven!) and I'm pretty sure that he empathizes with us in our dark moments of grief.
My hope for the future is sure and strong... but in the meantime I still miss the ones who are no longer a living part of my life... That will only stop when we are together again... one way or the other.
Thanks for the comments... Every point is appreciate and valid.