I've been lurking about, checking out some of the evidence against the WTBS. I am currently inactive but still an approved/baptized member. I have seen all the 1914/607bce evidence; the blood transfusion quandry evidence; the current child abuse problem evidence and several other things that are damning to the WT doctrines.
I see that some here are sincere people hoping that others see what they believe they have seen, but others seem bitter and vindictive. I try to weed through the most negative to look for facts and evidence, not opinion and mudslinging.
My predicament in having lost faith in the Society is this: Does the GB really believe they are God's human channel for all of mankind to learn about his kingdom? Or is there some sinister conspiracy? Is it to fleece millions of people to make them rich or powerful? What do they gain by this notoriety? The thing about committing yourself to the fact that the WTBS may not be God's organization is if they are not, then who is? Or is there an earthly organization at all? God is a god of organization. I am leaning to the old Russell(or was it Rutherford) philosphy of "Religion is a snare and a racket" way of thinking.
When you see all the so called "mind-control" evidence compiled and listed together from years of literature it makes me wonder, "Are they really that smart? Are they trying to control our very thinking? Or is just because of being no different than the rest of us(ideas and opinions change over time) and there is more than one man's thoughts going into the writing, that things just get muddled up?" If they were that smart, I can't see them getting caught in inconsistencies all the time.
Since becoming inactive and no longer "feeding on the teachings from the F&DS", my mind seems freeer, more at ease. I see things I didn't see before(the little inconsistencies that we just used to shrug our shoulders at). I feel like a huge burden has been lifted. Is it because I'm lazy and don't wanna get dressed up 4 days a week, go to meetings, knock on doors or is because my mind has been released from some control that was on it? Some of the teachings are correct and have opened the door to people learning about the Bilbe, while others seem to be contrived, relying on old opinions and dogma. Am I being picky about things that will eventually get straightened out, or am I correct in sensing that something is very wrong?
I have not read R. Franz's or C.O. Johansons books yet. I'm trying to figure a way of getting them locally, paying cash instead of charging over the Internet. Yea, a little paranoid. I know that's what some of you will say to do, is read these books. But I would like some input as to what finally made up your minds. Is there anyone else that had the same thoughts that I have now? What convinced you to believe as you do now? Are some of you still active, afraid to commit and comment outloud because of the possibility of losing all former ties to friends and relatives? Is that not as hypocritical as some say the GB is?
As you can see, I am fairly confused over this. Do I jump on the bandwagon of saying the Society is full of mistakes just so I can be part of the World? Sounds like the easy way out. Any input would be appreciated and I apologize for my rambling. I have spoke to NO ONE about this and these are things that eat away at you at night. (If this comes up as a red font, sorry. I don't know how to change back to black font.)