Emyrose,
I love your name, it reminds me of my sister You are new to the forum and I want to welcome you. I have read this exchange between you and Bro. Hippikon, and I can honestly say I see both of your view points. But the struggle I am having is that it is inside my own head.
When I first came on this forum monthsago, I had all my ducks in a row so to speak. I had a belief in God, that was built on faith. This belief in God gave me the ability to hope. Not only hope but actually fortell the future, to a certain degree. It helped me explain the unexplainable, by leaving it in His hands. I gave me a peace in my heart, and courage to face the day. I pray to God everyday, as my chldren do as well.
But something amazing happened I was introduced to things that others learned and others beliefs. I had my eyes opened to the many forms of worship there are out there in this world. I looked to the logical points some made and I was unable to defend. I then went to God and prayed, about these things and really took to heart all the evidence provided.
Now I am stuck in limbo, still having a need to have God in my life and on the other side actually proving them(non believers) wrong. I do so love a challenge But as you mentioned, "Where is your faith" I like that point. Faith without works is dead correct? Well if you are doing the works, YOU are actually doing it, with the backdrop of God.
Well this is how I see myself now. I no longer claim to believe the God of the bible, though I believe the writings are wonderful and use them. I feel that all of us has a piece of God in us, and we can each have our own version of "God" that we wish. I am in no way discouraging you to believe in God of the bible. Just look around and see others views and research they have done. Then take what you wish of it and throw the rest away. You don't have to have a view that 6 million others have. You are an individual look inside of yourself and see what makes you who you are and ask yourself, Did God make you who you are did the experiences you have had and continue to have?
Just think of this following example as you reach your decision, or come join me in limbo. If you are explaining the reason for God to take away your panic attack, you must also explain why God lets innocent people die. They are contradictory, and because he is God is not a good enough answer.
I hope I made some sense. I am rushing to get the kids off to school this morning. If not, email me I would be happy to chat.
wendy