Dana,
Thanks for posting the title to that book. I checked it out the day after I first read your post and now I'm to the part about “Engaging the Flow”. I can't put my finger on my "control drama" but I think I may be a "poor me"...LOL. I’m having a hard time following my pattern from childhood until now and what effect my parents have on all that. I wasn’t very close to either one on my parents growing up, although I maintain a wonderful relationship with my mother now…that didn’t occur until adulthood. During childhood, neither parent was ever really involved in my life…so there wasn’t much interaction to base anything on. The only thing I can see that I might do now, is attempt to gain attention from others through sympathy. My life still sucks just as much as it did when I was a kid…and it does appear to be a pattern with me, that I continually put myself into difficult, and sometimes impossible situations and relationships and then seek out comfort from others by sharing with them my story(ies).
The book aside, I have always wanted to understand why I do this to myself (put myself in terrible relationships and situations). As far as “control dramas” go…I really don’t think I try to control anyone. I can see now, that if this is truly part of a method or process or progress of/to spiritual enlightenment, I will have a hard time getting past this "insight"...LOL. At any rate, t he book is a very interesting read. I especially found myself relating on an individual basis to the events of history. When I was reading how people had put faith in the clergymen then lost it…and along with that faith went their answers to the questions of purpose (the longer now)...yada, yada, and to preoccupy their minds they focused on other things to fill the void...I was like "wow. that is sooo where I am right now".
As far as identifying with your surroundings (the mystical experience)...I have always been on a very spiritual level with nature and always felt a very strong connection with the universe (like in the book where he describes the universe as his body, as if it absorbed him completely).
I've been reading a lot more fiction lately, mostly Anne Rice (the non-fiction was frying my brain). I read an awesome book titled the Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd not too long ago. That was the BEST book I have read in a verrryyy long time. I highly recommend it. I recently read the Power of Myth (non-fiction), which was also a terrific book.
Good luck and take care….
Valis,
Thanks for posting that info about the Popol Vuh…sounds interesting. I’ll start on that as soon as I finish this book.
Sadie