If You Could Take "It" Back, What Would "It" Be???

by minimus 34 Replies latest jw friends

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  Steve Lowry

  czaro,

  "I'd have quit holding in all that gas at the meetings. Seems like a lot of discomfort to suffer for a bunch of twerps."

  This reminds me an experience I once had as a kid at a meeting. The rows of chairs at my K. Hall were all connected as if it were one long seat with individual chairs. Well, this old guy let fart that you could not only hear but you also could feel as it rippled through the chairs. My friend and I were sitting together and when we felt it rumble up into our chairs, we began to giggle. The giggle became too much to contain so we advanced to the bathroom, where we exploded into laughter. A few moments later this very irritated older brother came into the bathroom where were dying laughing and chastised us for our behavior. But we just kept laughing, and then we started laughing at him. We couldn’t stop. Finally we regained our composure and rejoined the rest if the boring dead. But for a moment I felt normal as hell. It was great to laugh like that!

  Steve . . .
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  frenchbabyface

  I will tell you what … had already wrote for an other thread but put the little story instead of this one ...

  It’s about my son he was 12 and I was 26 ; he wants to go to the swimming pool with his friend, so we take the bus and here we are there, but I don’t like the swimming pool myself (the sea yes), so there I paid the tickets with a franc note and get my change, BUT he still needs some money if he feels like to rent a tool to play with, so I gave him some money (IN ONE PIECE, it’s important to understand what it is all about – detail after the story cause it is the story).

  Then I leave … have to take the bus BACK and FORTH on a SUNDAY!!! So I had to WAIT FOR THE BUS – forgot about the walkman for the music and I’ve got enough tickets to go back and forth with everyone – those details are important in the story too and also that at this little period of time we were not living in Paris – I mean in a city where you need a CAR) and I’m not patient at all, at all, at all !!!

  So I’m here taking them (Julien and Anthony) back WAITING FOR THE BUS AGAIN!!! … So I’m asking did you enjoy the swimming pool? … What did you rent to play with? … And he Answered : “Nothing” … So I wonder and asking why ? And he answered me : “ because I didn’t have the money” …. So the following question was : What’s happen with the money I gave you ? His answered : You didn’t gave me the money. …. WHAT !!! ???

  I mean in my head, I was just shocked! HOW CAN YOU LIE TO ME LIKE THAT!!! I mean I remember it … but we were still outside and I didn’t want to make a fool of myself or him in yelling on him in the street. I’ve just SHUT MY MOUTH waiting till we were HOME (but during the travel … I was thinking Man we’re gonna talk VERY SERIOUSLY!!!)

  So here we are home, I said to his friend Julien to stay in the bedroom, while we are in the living room (maybe I shoudn’t have but It was my way to protect Anthony a little bit cause I knew that IT WILL BE HARD !!!). And NOW I’M TALKING : I remember I gave you money, DID I or DID I NOT ? and answered : NO … SLAP !!! (huge ONE) … I just can’t take it, Now Anthony look me right in between the eyes and (Same question again, same answer) …. SLAP !!! (huge ONE) … AND HE IS LOOKING AT ME LIKE I’M THE FOOL ONE. I cant just take it : TONY ! (rage) with bad faith you ain’t going nowhere, If you lost the money just tell I won’t kill for that ! BUT don’t LIE TO ME !!! Same question again, same answer. SLAP !!! (huge ONE). I mean I don’t remember how much SLAPS I gave him and he was still LOOKING AT ME LIKE I’M THE FOOL ONE … WITH All his PRIDE with his read cheek cause on purpose I was slapping the same cheek (AND THAT WAS REALLY VERY MEAN) !!! I couldn’t believe it and Wondered HOW MUCH TIMES HE already LIED to me ??? And my question here was WHY ? for a FEW MONEY… I mean he knew that when he is telling me truth even if it’s bad, bad, bad (I’ve been a kid myself before) … I forgive … BUT till a certain point (means not too much !) SO THAT WAS NOT
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  frenchbabyface

  SO THAT WAS NOT
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  frenchbabyface

  SO THAT WAS NOT NORMAL … I know him, and he knows me too much … WHAT WAS WRONG ? (I should have think about that before …) Then I heard a voice behind the door Julien saying : Yes you gave him some money) Now I feel bad for ANTHONY because I wonder if I have to let Julien get into it as a witness. While I’m thinking, I’m giving him my back … (cause he can read in my eyes !!! and feeling that I pity him at this special moment) … I decided to not let Julien get into it. But then I’m looking at Anthony again … and said : SEE Anthony … when you lie … HOW PEOPLE CAN PUT YOU IN TROUBLE … EVEN YOUR OWN FRIENDS as witness YOU MAY BE IN A COURT OF JUSTICE ONE DAY … Remember that !!! Take care in every way but don’t lie for yourself or anyone !!! … But Then HE told me : “ you gave me money, yes … but not to rent a tool ... it was just enough for the locker” (for their clothes) Still … I didn’t remember that (the piece of money) was not enough I thought WHAT IS HE TRYING TO DO NOW HE STUPID … DID HE HEAR ME OR WHAT!!! But I just feel like I couldn’t SLAP him once again (no reasons anymore cause he acquiesced somewhere). So I was thinking how can I make myself sure that he is not lying … And I remembered that their was only one type of that money in my wallet … that I didn’t have to use money for the bus, and I checked my wallet … AND HE WAS RIGHT !!! I felt SO BAD that I felt like I need a good excuse to have done WHAT I HAVE DONE ! … So I said … WHY DID YOU SAID THAT I DIDN’T GAVE YOU “ANY” *** MONEY … He just Added … “because you asked about the money to rent the tool, when you gave me the money, I didn’t check myself and when I saw it was not enough even to make the changes, I thought that you’ve just forget about it “ *** Precision: HE NEVER SAID “ANY” OH MY … !!! What a BIG MISSANDERSTANDING … !!! I apologized … but he didn’t want to take the HUG … I felt BAB BAB BAB … He went to play with julien in his bedroom and … after a while … He came to took me in his arms telling me that he understand why I reacted that way. I Felt better but not that much … His cheek was still RED !!! Had to kiss him on only one side … WHAT A PITY !!! … IF I COULD, YES, YES, YES … I would take that back … BUT ... I just can’t !
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  suzi_creamcheez

  All the rotten, critical, hateful things I said to people when I was deeply immersed in JW-ism and convinced that i was right.

  Years of drug/alcohol use =~~